I've been conversing with Basil these few days. Problems and crap that keep cropping out. It's really depressing to have to see him go through all this now, but despite my help, he's still troubled. I really hate the way melancholy overtakes our mind, especially since I can be considered as an optimistic person. Examinations are coming and these type of thoughts can really be a burden. English 'O' level papers tomorrow and despite the improvement in comprehension and vocabulary, i'm still not confident. I suppose it has something to do with my race being anglo-indonesian, I'm pressured to do well. Whenever I start on my essay, I become parochial in my choice of words and my mind turns banal. It's really just so fucked up when that happens. I so fucking hate it.

Aside from english, i've crammed a few nights just studying for my previous physics test. I really doubt i can do well for my papers this year. Of course I'm not an indolent fuck anymore, seriously speaking, I'm really a whole lot more diligent. Maybe not to the extend of some people but at least I'm showing more interest towards my study. Sometimes even, i would panic if I don't know something. God gracious me, maybe I'll become a studyholic soon. Ah, but i can't afford to throw my youth away just because of my future.. or.. can I? Lol. That really isn't a question to be asking myself.

What else could i say about the days which passed by oh so quickly~ Ah, I've got a boyfriend now. Lol. But I'm sure you know who it is by now, unless of course you're a feather-brain. Yes, air-heads. I love air-heads cause sometimes I think I belong to that category. Lol. Anyways, back to my relationship. How would i describe him? Probably an unflagging guy who is smarter than me? Honier than me? Less retarded compared to yours truly ;D Haha. I love you.

Oh, there was something Daddy installed for me into my computer, it's a thesaurus :D Extremely useful for days when my internet connection and the online dictionary is truly unreliable. And it works oh-so-well! Really! I just have to highlight the word, double right click on it and a toggle bar would appear on the top right hand corner! Really cool huh? And the dictionary category is also available but I'm too lazy to install it for now. Will do so really soon though.

Ah phoo-ie! I think i should be off to bed now. It's getting late and the weather is humid. I'll probably sweat or something in the middle of the night. Sigh.

Dear, sometimes, i feel that there is ardour whenever I'm with you, it really makes me miss you too. But i suppose we can spend more time together after all this tension has been conquered. As for now, don't be disheartened, kays? Exams are here! Think academics! I don't want you to overstress and turn bizarre or crazy! Love you ♥

xoxo {♥}