Sweet oh Sweet Lullaby ♥

Tuesday 31 March 2009 ; 18:15 {♥}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIT-- I MEAN! YOLANDA! xDD
haha! JUST KIDDING xD
Hope you like the painting i got you (:
Sorry if its a bit crappy though Dx
it was the best i could do in such a short time xD
Hope this would be a super duper day for you hun!!
SISTER!! xDD

loves~;
MUAKS

xoxo {♥}

Monday 30 March 2009 ; 21:30 {♥}

School. Homework. Tests.
I'm tired! Dx
really! sigh
but i can't seem to sleep early
dammit
today is only Monday
it's a special day tomorrow xDD haha
it's the last day of the month! yay!

I've been reading alot of Mangas these days xD
Naruto
Emma
Gakuen Alice
Futatsu no Spica
Galaxy Angels
Tantei Gakuen Q
Kaichou wa Maid-sama!
Skip Beat!

Really good mangas all of them xDD really <3
Naruto = Ninja ♥
Emma = Victorian/ Romance ♥
Gakuen Alice = Powers/ Kid Romance ♥
Fatatsu no Spica = Space ♥
Galaxy Angels = Space/ Romance ♥
Tantei Gakuen Q = Case Solving ♥
Kaichou wa Maid-sama! = Romance ♥
Skip Beat! = Entertainment/ Romance ♥

xoxo {♥}

Sunday 29 March 2009 ; 19:53 {♥}

I have no motivation to study whatsoever.
really. some push me please! Dx
i want my lawyer job.

xoxo {♥}

Thursday 26 March 2009 ; 21:37 {♥}

Heyya!
I think it's time for me to feature someone else!
I've been ignoring her too much and being mean towards her xD
I know, i'm somewhat a bad sister.. so to make up for it,
I shall give her FAME on my blog!
MUAHAHA!
Be honoured!
xDD
So yeah.. Here are the pictures xD
And please don't ask me what she was doing, cause i dunno as well xDD

"little sisters are monsters." THIS IS PROOF!

Personally, i like this one. She's wearing my mum's bra.. LOL
xDD

*hugs*

xoxo {♥}

Wednesday 25 March 2009 ; 21:15 {♥}

Okay.. i've been having issues. Emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing and so on.. I may not look like it but i'm feeling rather melancholily these days. Notice how different my post is from the others? Sigh. I already told myself I'm over him, and i believed myself. But.. because of a few nice things he said i go over my heels again. This kinda sucks hard doesn't it? I WANT to get over him, i really do. He's living there and currently, I'm living here so why is it so hard for me to forget? I don't even know him properly in the first place. He'll be going to a EVEN further place which gives me more the reason to move on. Goodness! Quickly some to Singapore and go back already! Dx I want to see him off but.. I dunno if I can even contact him to do so. Things are so difficult these days. The most stupidest thing would be, I have my fucking 'O's and 'N's to work my ass on! I WANT to be a lawyer and I want to accel in it. I don't fucking care if the world is going to end at the year 2012. If I work hard, at least I know my life is fulfilled. Maybe God doesn't want us to meet each other.. now. MAYBE. I don't know, I can't forsee the future. I'll just pray and hope that I'll get on with my life here in secondary school. I can look forward into adulthood soon enough. Meaning, that is when i can worry about such a thing. Not now! So why is it so difficult to forget? Maybe cause he's nice? Hah. Or maybe cause I don't know his dark side.. Not yet i hope.

I suppose the best thing now is to just carry on with our studies and such. I shall just treat you as an online friend and squeel to myself if you say anything nice. Noone would know. Shhh.. Maybe I can allow myself to go all kuku and braggy and idiotic, but, I don't think i can like him to such a extent. Sigh, I've made up my mind. Now, i shall like him but only like. I won't expect too much and just appreciate him as an online ally. Like he said, it's impossible for us to go on anywhere anyways, so, I'm just wasting my time. Bleh.

Hopefully my headache goes away soon.

Are you my friend or foe?
Can i lean on your shoulder?
Or would you just brush me off?
Would you rather receive a hug from me?
Or a peck on the cheek?
Are you real or an illusion?
So, am I in my own dellusion?
If so, as my imagination,
Save me;
♥

xoxo {♥}

; 20:59 {♥}

Japanese.
I like this song. Yes I do.
Long Kiss Goodbye
by: Halcali
Used in one of the ending songs for Naruto Shippuden

Japanese:
Kondo wa itsu aeru ka nante
Sonna kaoshite yoku ierutte
Omotteta yo nande darou
Nani mo ki ni naranai FURIshite
Ii wake suru nara kikou sama de
Tsunagatte taikara

Mou kao mo mitakunai megurokawazoi
Arienai tenkai odoru KEETAI
GOODBYE MEERU naraba wasuretai
“Hold me tight” but “dokka kietai”
Anytime shiberisugi no KY
Chirari miseru tsuyogari na “I cry”
Namida no kouka wa dore kurai?

Watashi na ri ni “ai saretai” afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
Nido to kimi ni aenai sonna ki ga suru n da…
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba mietara nai watashi tabun
Uso demo ii no ni “ikanai demo” ienai yo

Kushami suru to deru hen na koeto
Kusha kusha ni warau BUSAIKU na kao
Tomaranai ase me wo kosuru kuse
Dou setsu maranai AITSU no tokusei

Nitemo nitsukenai futari no SUTAIRU
Muda ni Shy SENSU wa yayanai
Uso tsuku toki no fukumi warai
UZAI tokku ni BAREBARE mendokusai

Tamatama kareshi gai nai TAIMINGU de
Hima tsubushi teido no koi tte
Tomodachi ni mo ii wakeshitete
Masaka watashi ga oikaketeru…nande?

Tsumaranai JOOKU wa ittsumo kudoku
Douko made mo tsuzuku aki aki na TOOKU
Sono tabi ROKKU kondo wa watashi kara Knock

Watashi na ri ni “ai saretai” afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
Nido to kimi ni aenai sonna ki ga suru n da…
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba mietara nai watashi tabun
Uso demo ii no ni “ikanai demo” ienai yo

Nigitteta te ga hanaretara
Kimi wa itsuka wasurechau no?
Watashi no koto

Watashi na ri ni “ai saretai” afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
Nido to kimi ni aenai sonna ki ga suru n da…
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba mietara nai watashi tabun
Uso demo ii no ni “ikanai demo” ienai yo

English:
This time when we are going to meet,
I often said that towards you face.
You probably thought something was up

Anytime that suits, or passes the sky Ky
Briefly noticing your idea, "I cry"
If it is common like this to have tears?

You "transfer" yet you appear again
Now you are gone you are no longer visable
And now I cannot see you
Is only the memory

When we have the chance to convey,
The right words don't come
Instead the thing that drops is a little lie.
You cannot say "I'm going"

Grasping the freshness as you are suddenly gone
It has been so long, have you forgotten
It's all coming back

You "transfer" yet, you appear again.
Now you are gone you are no longer visible
And I can now not see you
Is only the memory.

Grasping the freshness
As your suddenly gone.
It has been sa long, have you forgotten?
It's all coming back

You "transfer" yet to appear again
Now you are gone, you are no longer visable
And now I cannot see you
Is only the memory

xoxo {♥}

Monday 23 March 2009 ; 22:22 {♥}

OMG!

i didn't have motivation to blog for a few days until...
awhhh *light from god*
my motivation fell from the sky~
literally!
i was sitting down minding my own business and then...
tada!
the ceiling collapsed!
i was laughing away of course
teehee
now there is a huge hole in my room
stupid leak from the freaking pipe
woah.. something interesting finally happened!
xDD
now i shall wait for the repairs
while waiting, i will camp in the living room for a few days
teehee

xDD

xoxo {♥}

Tuesday 17 March 2009 ; 23:05 {♥}

I hate blogging this way
using the main PC and stuff
i can't punch on the keys properly
it's so annoying..
i had to fix the previous sentences 4 times -.-"
arrgh
and there isn't any graphic card so i can't play games and stuff
even my own blog website lags my comp :/
fuck it.
and it's sooo slow~
i just thank god i have somethings to keep me company
Pink PSP and internet *HUGS*
well, i guess i'll be sleeping late
since i'm not exactly tired

xoxo {♥}

; 11:41 {♥}

Oh goodness!
it's been two days and one night since i was out of the house
and being back feels so nice!
it felt as if i've been away for so long~ xDD
ahh!
and i'm back meaning, SLC IS OVER!
that's like my last event this year xD
i can finally finally step down ♥
that means wen qing would need to step up ;D
not that i'm not letting go already
teehee :D

xoxo {♥}

Saturday 14 March 2009 ; 19:56 {♥}

i feel so fucking pissed now
i went to school for physics remedial. i understood (:
and then went to watch movie "race to witch mountain"
with christine and marvin
teehee
that was all good
so i went to parkway with mum, dad, sis and maid
i bought 3 new tops (:
i like~
so freaking tired
so we came back home
and the first thing i noticed was my laptop
i touched the table and it was fucking wet
so i shouted
haha. congratulate me please!
now my laptop is fucking spoiled!
you know why!?
because before everyone left the house, my mum reminded my maid to close the window
what did she do!?
she fucking pushed my laptop table next to the window
THE FUCKING WINDOW
AND THE WINDOW WAS FUCKING OPEN
ohh and seeing how fucking suckish the weather is these days,
i wasn't surprise that it rained
GUESS WHAT? (i'm sure you all know by now)
MY FUCKING LAPTOP GOT CAUGHT IN THE RAIN!
YES! SO THATS WHY IT CAN'T FUCKING WORK!
SO NOW I'M FUCKING PISSED OFF
THANKS TO THAT FUCKTARD!
ARGHH!
screw you!

I just thank you god,
That i'm staying overnight in school tomorrow;
♥

xoxo {♥}

Friday 13 March 2009 ; 19:07 {♥}

teehee
i know i should be downstairs now..
studying..
but i came across this song. it's nice :D

xoxo {♥}

Thursday 12 March 2009 ; 23:02 {♥}

Whee~
i feel better today compared to yesterday (:
yeah!
we got back our results
yes, there were many tears but come'on girls!
it's CA! not SA! it makes a big difference!
you can do it!
i know i didn't do too well, (infact i flunked most of it xD)
but it's just the beginning!
we have the rest of the year to buck up so don't feel so bad
it's really not the end of the world dears!
teehee

ahh!
and i realised some people can be so insensitive -.-"
seriously!
it wasn't her fault so don't rub it in!
you complain that we are the selfish one but how about you!?
we tried our best, TRIED
but all you all did was ignore our effort and put the blame on us!
do whatever you all like then!
we won't care anymore
HMPH!

Just now we had evening under the stars!
yes people, we didn't perform ):
but nontheless,
the other performances were magnificent!
great job people :D
hope i can take part next year xD

anyhoo~
today afternoon we had meeting
it was tiring and stressful i swear -.-"
and i need to go back to school tomorrow
despite the fact it's e-learning day
sigh
and i won't be back till evening
how am i suppose to study? :/
satuday would be SLC
god i can't wait till it's over!
really, i become 100x more jovial then ever when i think about it
relieved as well
ah. tired bah!
nights

God,
I pray that you would make my secret wishes,
(i won't say what they are here),
come true for me
Amen;
♥

xoxo {♥}

Wednesday 11 March 2009 ; 21:51 {♥}

Fuck school
fuck studies
fuck results
i hate it!

damn you
i'm in absolutely no mood to blog
why am i doing it now?
i dunno. D<

Kenapa si kalau saya ada pacar,
pelajaraanku amat baik?
Tapi kalau saya bujang,
pelajraanku memang buruk?;
♥

xoxo {♥}

Tuesday 10 March 2009 ; 21:04 {♥}

tired as usual
need to sign SS! Dx
fuck it bah!
and i feel feverish today :/

didn't do much
topped D&T and got A2 for recent emaths test :DD
teehee!
but fuck. i screwed ss really really badly!
maybe i should study more
ah
stupid slacking! Dx

ahh!
he said he MIGHT be coming to s'pore
:/ dammit

oh well. good night.

Bagai pungguk merindukan bulan;
♥

xoxo {♥}

Monday 9 March 2009 ; 20:30 {♥}

tiring day today
we got scolded by miss soh for not doing well in SS
i feel guilty for not studying :/
sorry cher
but i did well for D&T though
but.. i dunno, to me i didn't hit my target
infact, i was like 2% away from it
which makes me wonder..
why didn't i get it? damn
anyways
i'm not really in the mood to blog
and i don't have much to say :/
gonna screw english up darn it
well
byes.

Like
Love
Lust
Folly
Hate
Death;
♥

xoxo {♥}

Sunday 8 March 2009 ; 19:51 {♥}

My third post today xDD
teehee
i guess alot of things happened but they were just so different (:
first i felt sick today morning
i didn't want to eat or anything Dx
then i went of to the beach to cool
maybe alittle breeze would be nice
and when i got back i felt ubber hyped! teehee
i dunno why
i felt so light and relieved

after that basil asked me to go out and study
so i agreed seeing that i didn't have anything else to do
so we went to a place at siglap
galerie i think
i didn't eat
cause my appetite isn't really back yet
basil bought me ice lemon tea though
teehee. thanks!
although it was bitter xD

went to finish up maths
i still have abit here and there that i need to do
sigh..
oh wells
byes :D

It's funny
How small things like crushes
Can make my emotions swing
You may have an ex you still love
But that doesn't change me much
I still like you
shh;
♥

xoxo {♥}

; 14:33 {♥}

ah. i'm stupid
sorry.
you might still like me a little
and i like you too
but, this is really dumb

ah. whatever happens, it happens
as much as i love god, sometimes, things are just so cruel

maybe now i really need marvin's help

xoxo {♥}

; 09:21 {♥}

teehee
i've been wacthing this video so many times already
and everytime i watch again, it always gets to me xDD
it's sooo freaking funny! xDD
WATCH WATCH WATCH!
WHY CHRIS BROWN BEAT UP RIHANNA! xD

xoxo {♥}

Saturday 7 March 2009 ; 20:10 {♥}

Whee~ went out today :D
with Christine, Yolanda and Marvin
went to bedok to get Christine's shoes xD
and Bugis to get Yolanda's Jazz pants
and LOL! yolanda left Marvin's crockroach in the store xD
we had to go back to get it
such a waste of time tsk tsk
but i was fun though xD
we met marvin later on
we went looking for his new bag in Bugis Street
he wanted to get fake glasses but in the end he didn't. teehee
after that we headed to bugis, as in the shopping mall with the aircon
walked around alot
ate donuts (:
CHOCOLATE donuts! teehee
and then bought coke float with vanilla ice-cream
and and yolanda was hungry so she bought TAKOYAKI!
we had to wait for her to finish eating so we stood infront of the window
looking at the dude make the takoyaki
i think people thought we were retards! xD
teehee
but it's normal anyways~
after that we left bugis and headed for tampines
didn't do much, waited for yolanda's bus
took some pictures :DD

Marvin and his rapist face -.-"

Yolanda (:

I don't have a picture with christine though ):
ah. went home soon after xD
SORRY SYAFIQ!
we sorta forgot to invite you
DDx

To: N-----
Oh my
I think i like you;
♥

xoxo {♥}

Friday 6 March 2009 ; 19:57 {♥}

i feel so tired~ teehee
Went to school. Nothing much
lessons after lessons
ah! i forgot to hand up my literature file ):
nevermind. Rajah would chase me soon
Hm.. oh!
had physics today but Mr Oh is currently in Laos
so we did this worksheet
it's SUPPOSE to be test
but the cher just gave it to us saying it isn't xD
cause she wasn't told BUT HELLO!
on the top right corner, in small print, stated the word 'TEST' -.-"
weird teacher. teehee

after that we slacked a little. we had to collect 50 bottle caps
we only had 43 so we needed 7 more
i managed to steal the last one from marvin! muahahaha!
washed the bottle caps and brought them down
sec2s singing temasek's light -.-"
random. lol

went for CCA after. Matthew got the weird Art teacher pissed off
cause he didn't knock on the door when he went in xD
did nothing much
CCA is a slacker's time anyways
aww! and today's the last lesson with mr salam! Dx
dammit. Suzannah soon!
i wanna step down!

After CCA went to Jenny with Ledia, Christine, Yolanda, InnYee and Hannah
Christopher wanted to meet me so he came by
AND AND ON THE WAY HOME, SOMETHING EMBARRASSING HAPPENED!
SOMEONE ALMOST FELL OFF HER/HIS BIKE!
*wink wink* i didn't reveal who xD
teehee

now i shall listen to music and rot, allowing myself to departure from my own consciousness

Everytime i try to fly
I fall
Without my wings
I feel so small
I guess i need you baby;
♥

xoxo {♥}

Thursday 5 March 2009 ; 20:49 {♥}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!
sorry the pic is so small xDD
hehe

OOMG! you're already soooo old 'DADDY'! teehee
i have EXACTLY 6 weeks to catch up xDD
*wink wink* yes readers! i revealed my birthdate!
wait for us yeah!?
hope you like the FART T-shirt christine, JQ and i bought (:
and thanks for helping me look for the bag~ xD
*HUGS*
WE LOVE YOU!

Love;
It's the most funniest thing in the world.

xoxo {♥}

Wednesday 4 March 2009 ; 20:45 {♥}

first things first

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAIRYLL!!
hehe
and congrats on your achievement in making it to the SINGAPORE team!
we're rooting for you! :D

ah. just came back from parkway
went cause of mummy's dental appointment
she saw my bag and said she'll gimme money to get a new one!
hehe
i'll probably get those backpack types BUT different from the 'in thing' now
cause well.. in my opinion, i find it rather.. not me!
and too common xDD
so i think i'll try buying tomorrow or something
from zinc i guess.. hm..
shall be picky again >D muahaha!
now... i need to shower and do my homework! yes people
i DO do my homework
it just depends if i brought home my relevant books or not xD
hehe

xoxo {♥}

Tuesday 3 March 2009 ; 19:48 {♥}

HANNAH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!
;DD
You're already 16! wait up for us yeah?
We shall watch NC 16 movies together next time!
*HUGS AND KISSES*
♥

hehe.
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i'm crazy i know Dx

xoxo {♥}

Monday 2 March 2009 ; 21:30 {♥}

my wishlist just expanded!
haha
i guess it's because nothing caught my attention until now :D
technology = love!

oh! another thing
i was watching some clips and i came across this song
yes, it's 'Everytime' by Britney Spears
super long long time
i can't really recall since when but i'm sure it's before she went kuku.
It's really nice and soothing
hehe
enjoy (:

Everytime - Britney Spears

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

xoxo {♥}

; 19:11 {♥}

I wanna laugh out loud, really. People claim to know others better than one another. How long did you know him to be able to allow yourself to judge in such a manner. Please, seek reasons, not favour. We have reasons for hating someone, yes, we wanna murder him.. is that so wrong? He fucking lied to his girlfriend. Promised her things and she fucking believed it. Did he keep it? I'm not gonna reveal the answer, you find out. For the sake of the both of us, i told him to stop smoking, guess what- he didn't. Instead, he told her "Yeah. i quit 2 weeks ago." Hehe. I believed him, YES FUCKTARD! I FUCKING BELIEVED YOUR FUCKING LIE! There is another reason, which is too ugly to reveal online. But after all that, he is still the victim? You people must be dumb, really. Either that or blinded. LOL. Blinded or manipulated into believing him. Then again, being manipulated really doesn't surprise me. Acting is his talent afterall. YES! SPITTING = VOMITTING! HA-HA.

how fucking long would this fucking take. We fucking hate him to the core. We have our fucking reasons. MUST WE FUCKING SHARE EVERY TINSY WINSY DETAIL TO THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD? i didn't think so.

Let us be. If he stops all his absurdity, we'll stop as well. capish?

xoxo {♥}