She was confused and shocked. She was terrified. She has never been in a relationship except for that one time. But, it was only pre-teen puppy love so it didn't count. She rejected a few guys then but regretted in doing so. She accepted him, neglecting the ringing in her head. She was still confused then, why didn't she think it through? She didn't know what was going on. She was too desperate and attracted to his rowdy attitude and fugly face. She felt unloved.
After a date or so, she felt even more attracted to him. She soon thought she fell in love with him. There were somethings that needed to be changed. She despise the smell of tabacco and the taste of strong alcohol, actually, any alcohol for that matter. She asked him to stop smoking and taking cigarettes. He promised her, he told her he loved her. She believed him, every word despite her real lovies warnings. She trusted every word of it, she truly did. She was foolish and blinded by desperation. He went off, to puff a stick or few, behind her back. She was back stabbed. He told his friends to keep it from her, they did.
She still loved him despite his 'womanizer attitude'. He pinches other girls' cheeks and hands ignoring the fact he had a girlfriend. Thinking it was nothing much and didn't even bother to ask her if she was truly alright with it. He just pretended to love her more than anything. She was crushed and disturbed inside, she really was. When she was browsing through his PSP, many porn pictures of women. He didn't seem shy about it and just ignored her feelings on the spot. She felt disturbed and actually questioned herself about his motive but, decided to brush if off her mind. She put the PSP down and tried to pretend she didn't see anything.
On a normal day in school, one of her friends approached her, she told her that he cheated on her. He was still seeing an 'ex-girlfriend'... or were they still together during that time? She didn't know. Her mind started to indulge in confusion but unexperience at such a thing, she tossed it out. She didn't want to be a pessimist. She lied to herself, gave reasons to his unknown answers. She believed in this 'love'. She didn't want her heart broken. She was so afraid of such a state she would enter. Everything everyone said was a lie, she could only trust her boyfriend. The real lie.
When he was asking for a stick, the truth behind her back was revealed. He didn't love her, no he didn't. He was only in it because of a selfish and corrupt reason. She was clueless of such a thing. But after she realised, she lost her happiness after getting together with him, she decided enough was enough. She couldn't handle the stress and his vexatious behaviour. She wanted her freedom and true love back. No, her truth love didn't mean another guy but instead, a group of darlings she loves so much.
He became upset, insane and retarded when she asked for a break-up. He still had hopes of patching back, but, she didn't see the point. She lost her love in him, he didn't love her in the first place. His reasons for attraction was similar to any hedonist. He started lying even more. Being irritating towards his friends although they have their own problems to think about. He starts to reiterate his problems. One by one, everyone left him. No one likes him anymore, except for this drudges. She pitied them in a way, but felt nothing could be done now. Finally, she thought, she could finally rest from such a profligate. She was wrong, dead wrong.
He started disturbing her closed ones. He bitched about a her friend behind her back. Insulting her and thrashing her when she was absent. She got the news and was furious about such an unforgivable act that she tried screwing it into his nut-sized brain. He noticed the anger and hate coming out of the whole group, so he messaged her friend telling her she is hot. Contradictory.
This proved how much of a bigger liar and desperado he is. His 'act' for kindness is nothing but real shit. She regretted ever dating him, no, she regretted not rejecting him before he even opened his mouth. Without love, a real relationship can't be formed, simple enough, she was never in a relationship. A nightmare maybe, but nothing really happens in a nightmare.
Ah~ how free and easy she feels now (:
In everything, there is a lesson to be learnt. From this short composition, i have learnt to always choose a boyfriend properly and never give in to flatters and cheesy lines. Unless, however, the cheesy line belongs to a decent guy.
I hate you bitch. Nice to know you don't love me too ♥
