Love? Everybody speaks as if they know so much. I, myself am not very experience in this topic but i can't say i know nothing about it either. People started calling me a bitch and what shit just because i'm fucking happy i broke up? Oh! For god's sake people! open up your fucking mind. Okay, i admit. This time round I'm the heartless one but am i truly that fucking heartless? I realised that i DON'T LOVE him ANYMORE. What the fuck do you want me to do? Force myself to be in love? That's not possible. Love is love. It's something you can't stop neither is it something you can force. It comes and goes due to circumstances. Now, if i were truly a bitch, would i have broken his heart early? You know, i could just linger with him and play with his feelings until i set my eyes out on another guy and dump him on the spot BUT- i didn't. That would be true bitch. I did both of us a favour. I know i can't continue with him anymore so why should i be the one feeling fustrated and angry all the time? Yes, it's selfish but i'm preventing further annoyance and fustration. Oh yes yes, he is depress now, he is upset, he feels regretful.. OH FUCK OFF. i know all that shit but the fact is, i'm NOT gonna ACCEPT a patch because if the same thing happened, then wouldn't that just beat the whole purpose of breaking up in the first place? We are only 15 for crying out loud. If he were truly my soul mate then we'll be together when we reach 25 or 26 but thats still 10-11 years from now. And i doubt i'll get back with him, in the first place, i only stead with him to see how it goes and yeah, i fell in love. But it didn't last long. Too bad, it's either not the right time or we weren't meant to be. Simple, move on. Find a new partner. This is what life is all about, taking a step foward. He said he didn't like the virtual world because there is no pain. Look, in the real world, there is pain but there is so much more to that as well and your just restricting yourself to something you don't wanna let go. You told me before that you understood what love meant, 'to let go' but your not doing it at all. Whenever i wanted a call or conversation, i would always hear something about 'flashbacks' and memories and what shit but i don't fucking wanna hear that anymore! Your just stopping yourself even more. And when you can't continue, it'll be difficult for me to move on as well. I could just leave you and move on on my own but i decided not to. That, is another way to explain a bitch. I'm not gonna abandon my ex neither am i gonna be too close to you. I really really wanna move on and i wanna be single for a little longer now. Just go with the flow. Don't try to stop the current, you'll just drown in the end. I'm really sorry i had to break your heart and left you feeling depress but i can't love you back the way i used to. In love and war, nothing is fair. One of us is going down and sadly, it has to be you. But hey, i had my share of heartaches as well.

xoxo {♥}