17 is already so old! No wonder you're the wife/husband :PP Kidding! Anyways, I gave you many wishes already so here's a simple one :D Good luck for 'O's!

xoxo

Now, back to class T...

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I wonder if I can make my background stop moving. Heh.

Okay, today nothing much happened. I kinda, sadly, accidentally and stupidly poked my head with the writing tip of my pen. I thought I placed the cap back on and wanted to scratch my head but, I didn't put the cap on D: So I poked myself and it took me a rather long time to actually realize the little really painful pressure on my head. Lol. Lesson learnt ):

I just finished homework and I dunno if I have anymore else to do. Today got into trouble cause didn't do summary -.- Lol. Only Yolanda and Cinyi did :P haha nvm, got to sit outside and slacked anyways.

Ahhh.. It's so unnoisy and unfun T.T Syafiq! Get well soon :DD

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So today I woke up kinda early and went back to sleep and woke up again and went back to sleep and finally woke up at 11.45. Showered and was suppose to meet Christine at Bedok MRT platform at 1 but she pushed back the time to 1.30, so i just sat at the dining table and starred out of the window for half an hour drinking 7 up lemon. Yes, I have no life unfortunately :|

Hehe so I left and waited at the platform but something funny happened xD I was waiting and she just boarded the train so when she reached I only received her message and I didn't board so I missed her train :| haha but we met up at citylink anyways, bought milk and went over to buy stuff.

After that walked around Funan looking for my Vaio L but sad to say, I couldn't find it D: Urrgh. Made me so pissed. But we did sit and talk a lot :P

We didn't know what to do next so I asked if she wanted to see St Andrew's Cathedral. For the first time, we actually saw the inside. We couldn't go in though cause service was going on. Haha~ After that we went church scouting cause there were really a lot of churches around the area :P Even transformed churches like CHIJMES.. Hehe Picturesss :DDD

St Joseph Institution. I think the funny thing would be the flirting point :PP

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Yup and that's about it. Of course it's better to go there and see :P So Christine and I decided we're gonna go church hunting probably during the June holidays or end-year. Hehe~ Really looking forward :D

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I don't feel good. And no, I don't mean physically or in terms of sickness. I don't even feel like doing anything.

Oh, I do feel like rolling into a ball and sit at the corner of my room. But, everyone's home so my annoying family members would probably act concern and ask me what's wrong when all I really fucking need is time alone.

Screw it, I'm not even having family problems and yet I'm so pissed. I hate mood-swings and it isn't even the time of the month or, soon as a matter of fact.

No. I'm not pissed. Just a little disappointed. Gonna rest abit before doing Lit and Malay homework. Hopefully no insomnia tonight.

:/

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Physics and Chem :D

These days, my time table is pretty structured. Go to school, come back, shower, sleep, homework. And computer inbetween of course. I need a life. :|

Oh and I have yet to recover and my antibiotics are about to finish...

Also, Mum bought me more pills. Vitamin C pills and multivitamin pills. I feel like a sick little lamb ):

Back to homework~

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I'm so not in the mood to study or do homework. Sigh, let with only Lit and English though. Screw it. I went to the docs and told him I just have flu but upon returning home, I developed a headache and fever. -.- Retarded much.

Leona Lewis is awesome by the way (:

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I got this picture off someone's twitter cause the link was posted on Lambert's twitter. YES! I'M A STALKER! ♥♥

LOVE THE EYES! LIKE ZOMG! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

From his Japan trip~ God I love you Adam!

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Although it's in Japanese, this got to be the best fucking HD cutscene ever. With all the Eidolons transforming like transformers and Lightning being so damn hot! x) A must must must MUST watch and remember. In high definition of course :P

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Okay, that was deep -.- Was just thinking about somethings and I really do miss walking along the night beach alone. Maybe I'll do so tomorrow night. Sigh, today's mugging idea totally failed. I woke up in the morning ready to do POA only to retreat back into snuggling my blanket lol. And then I started talking to my Mum, Bro and Sis about our end year plan. Going back to Indonesia to redo our passports. Sigh, Jeff and I tried persuading her to let us home a week early but no~ She wants to go back to the village -.- Boosha!

I don't wanna go but she keeps insisting we visit our so-called relatives. Sigh, but she did say the guy who took care of her when she was little was sick so I guess she really wants to see him again. If he's gonna kick the bucket, I guess this is the least I could do for them. Oh, at least I'll be able to see the small lake thing I used to bathe in as a kid :P And my second cousins.

And catch roosters, pigs, cows... yeah, I wouldn't. Too gross :/ Oh! And I'll be able to bring home cocoa :D Provided my Dad lets me. Meh, that's practically what I'll be doing there.

I think however, I'm gonna bring make-up and look unfriendly so no one would approach me. I hate people speaking to me in Indonesian, except for Matthew, he's an exception.

Oh oh, and since I'll have nothing to do and probably limited internet excess (Wah! ): ) I shall go to spas and nail parlors etc etc cause it's cheeeeeap! :D Mum wants to stay at a hotel this time sooooo~ Hopefully they'll have good parlors (: If not then I guess I could go back to that big hotel instead. Cheap, long and good ;D

I'm looking forward to it (Well, partially) but I also don't wanna leave. Must make sure they don't book it during Grad-night or something or I'll totally freak ): Grad-night is a must go!

Neways, I needa do stuff... Goodnight (:

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Today, I confirmed that Lightning has a navel piercing (:

This makes me wanna get it more but it's not like I'll be showing my belly button to anyone right? :/ Meh, I still want one. When I'm older.

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I havn't blogged for abit. Nothing much to talk about lol except I'm stuck at FF:XIII ): Stupid pope-looking guy who can summon/transform into a metal monster thing that casts strong magic and will doom me sometime.

Maybe I'll try killing that son of a bitch again soon. Yeah? Yeah. Goodnight.

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Stupid school Gmail account thing. I don't even know where I'm suppose to go to try and sign in. I don't know my password either as well as I'm uncertain of my user name. I swear, why does the school even bother having edu-learn and email. No offence, but it's really stupid, retarded and futile. -.-

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Can't play the PS3 now cause dad took away the controllers due to what happened yesterday. -.- I'm annoyed and if he tells me that we can only play during the weekends, I'll tell him what's bullshit. We'll just argue and fight more -.- I'm very very annoyed now.

I still very much hate you and how you're really just fucking turning me chaotic. This is the first time I've ever felt this way. Ever. So you know how much I compressed into myself? Years of your fucking nonsense. Yeah, I'm not always right but I'm not as bloody self-righteous as you. At least my favourite line isn't "It's not my fault okay?" God, since when have I ever hear you say it was. I can't remember any so that tells alot. -.-

Screw you. I knew this would happen. I knew that coming to TMS would drive me up the wall and yes, it did. I wish now you know, how much of my personal time you have invaded. I really went crazy because of you. Thank God I regained myself.

A big hug and thanks to Emily xoxo
If anything else happens, I'll tell you kays? (:

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I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I fucking hate you. Ever since you entered the school, I have NEVER gotten a break from you. I DESPERATELY need to escape from home every once in a while BUT NOOO YOU JUST HAD TO PICK MY FUCKING SCHOOL! EVERYTIME I FUCKING SEE YOU, YOU'LL FUCKING APPROACH ME OR DO SOMETHING STUPID TO IRRITATE ME! CONGRATS CAUSE IT FUCKING WORKS AND I CAN'T FUCKING STAND THE SIGHT OF YOU. I WISH YOU'LL JUST LEAVE ME ALONE YOU BITCH! I HATE THE SIGHT AND THE THOUGHT OF YOU! YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A FUCKING NUISANCE! YOU'RE JUST SPOILT BY THAT WOMAN! EVERYTHING INVOLVES AROUND YOU! FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE YOU! I CAN'T FUCKING STAND THE FEMALES IN MY FUCKING FAMILY! I know we change our destiny and fate and bla bla bla all that other shit but God is mean to put me in this Family. Or maybe it's not his fault, it's just everyone else is a fucking retard. I hate myself as well for not doing anything. For spoiling you as well. I should have smacked you more when I needed to but whatever, I can do so now. I don't care how much I hurt you because, bitch, you're doing the fucking same.

I'm losing my hair, or rather, I'll pulling them out. I can't stand this. I really really can't. I've been holding all these feelings, ignoring them but God! I've reached my absolute limit! When you said you wanted me to die, I really felt like jumping off. Maybe everything will end and you'll feel so much happier without having me around. You know, you will finally have your own identity at school. You can have your own room. You can have more money to spend. You can have the PS3 and all my items (No shit, I'm so not giving them to you, you useless ass) but nonetheless, you'll have Dad and Mum's undivided attention. OH WAIT, YOU FUCKING HAVE THAT ALREADY.

Really, I wanna kill myself. Fuck you for making my life miserable. I thank you alot.

Next year, I really need to move out.

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Let the picture speak to you (:
Yes, I got my Final Fantasy XIII 4 days early :3

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ! :DD

Hope you comb your hair more often! And use the special conditioner too :3

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Today, Amy came back for a visit. Also, my sister and I were talking about PSLs now and then. God, I miss Anand and Amy's batch. I remember our first PSL camp, it was honestly the best camp I've ever been for and so far, nothing has overtaken it in terms of fun, excitement and bonding. I swear, if I could go back in time to relive camp, I would. I bet no other camp or event can ever replace what I feel is so special from my first year in PSL. Like nothing.

The most vivid thing I remember would be the staying over. My first night walk was creepy yet pretty. I can't seem to describe it but reminiscing, it makes me smile. Also all the scary movies we used to watch, how cold the room felt, I can still feel it now. The dance room we slept in, everyone fighting for space to hang our wet towels and to sleep a comfortable sleep, I can play the image so well in my head.

Nostalgia. I really wanna go back.

However, I'm glad. I'm happy to know that this feeling would only come once because it makes it even more special and precious. Knowing the opportunity and family-feeling won't ever be the same, PSL just makes it into my lovely box of memories. And in an extraordinary corner by itself. We're growing up really quickly huh? (':

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Happy Birthday Khairyll! :DD

Sorry couldn't get you your present in time ):

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Tired once again. I don't really know what to blog about except, I'm hungry. No homework for tomorrow so I shall start doing 'stuff' soon ;D And also post up a picture (:

ADAM LAMBERT COMING TO SG BUT THE BLOODY CONCERT IS INVITE ONLY! D: FREAK!!! CANNOT GOOOOOOO~~~!!! DDDDDDD'x

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Happy Birthday Hannah! :DD

Hope you like the chocolate coated strawberry bouquet and card (:
Good luck for 'O' Levels and happy strawberry 17! :D

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Okay, I deleted all my messages before saving them in archive. God! All my messages from 1/2 16 December til today D: Soooo freaking wasted! Feeling pissed now urgh.

And my nose looks so pretty now because I have an annoying little pimple smack right at the center. Thank you oil! -.- I can't even squeeze it ): Sucks to be me.

My mum wants to go back to Indonesia at the end of the year. Grr.. Screw it, I wanna go there get my passport done and over with and fly back. I don't wanna stay there as the air pollution is awful. Besides, without parents at home, I can do stuff~

I wanna cut my fringe! Not the hair on my back cause I don't find it long enough but my fringe is too long, it's wavy x( I blame my specs for that as well. Oh and I wanna highlight my hair at the end of the year. What colour? Probably something bright yet not too flashy.

I'm tired once again but I need to study for Physics. Test tomorrow and I don't wanna fail. So... toodles~ :D

Check; tomorrow I have some workshop thing. Friday CCA. Saturday probably help PSLs out. Sunday Mass CIP(I'm at Tanah Merah balls -.-) Monday I can finally fucking relax. (hopefully!)

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I'm tired.
I really wanna visit Florence, Venice, Milan, Rome and Vatican City.
As well as Paris, Dublin, Amsterdam, London(again), Vienna, Tokyo, Kyoto, Sapporo, Seoul, Bangkok, Holland, Copenhagen, Helsinki, Stockholm, Oslo and alot more countries/cities.
I should be studying physics now.
Busy tomorrow freak.
I can't wait for Friday night to come so I can bloody hell sleep in.
Screw everything fuck.
I hate chocolate stains on my fucking wall.
9th of March is a special day.
Cause Final Fantasy XIII comes out on the 9th.
Yay.
Argh. I think I'm PMS-ing.
Oh no, it's cause my bloody sister got chocolate stains on my wall.
Fuck you. Like seriously -.- bitch.
Hopefully I can leave this country soon to study.
How soon, God knows.
I pray it'll be next year -.- And in England

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Tired... Lol. Stayed back in school for TGC stage rehearsal thing. Totally slacked again. And I wouldn't say the performances were so good, cause, some weren't :/ Oh well~ After that, went to the balcony area where Wan Qi was helping Christine, Syafiq and Sangee edit their video, omg so fucking hilarious! xD We definitely MUST MUST MUST play it tomorrow! Yolanda and I are guest starring as well so yeah, we're hawt models ;D (self-proclaimed)

I just hope the whole class finds it funny too xD After that, went out to eat at LJS with Yolanda, Christine, Soon Kiat and Wan Qi. Looked around a little after that :P Anyways, my brain is slowly dying so I'll stop blogging for now. A few more days til my awesome Final Fantasy XIII ♥♥♥♥
Apalulubaba!

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