Alright~ I'm taking a breather since I'm not in the absolute mood to study. I've been distracted these few days. Probably because I've been listening to Trading Yesterday (Now known as Age of Information). Omg. I love their songs although I might say, sometimes they can sound a little similar to each other. Anyways, because of them, I've been thinking about religion alot. Specifically, my religion. Since they're a Christian band and yada. World on Fire really switched my mind on cause recently, I had a nightmare. It was the world ending. I was really terrified and despite it being a dream, I could really feel those emotions. It was really scary.

So what I really wanna say is, I love God. Haha. Weird but I just felt like saying it. I've been thinking about a lot of personal thing that it's difficult to portray my emotions. Alot relating to family, life, school, studies, everything. I also realise I might not be an extremist like some Christians but I prefer being this way. Open minded, maybe I do pick up alot from my Mum. Also having relatives who are Muslim and being somewhat attracted to Buddhism, I guess, I don't believe non-Christians will go to hell. No, I don't guess, I believe they won't. But that doesn't mean I wanna trade away my religion. On the contrary, I love my religion more and more. I love Jesus and God more whenever I learn about other religions. Not that I compare but because.. I dunno, I just do.

Sometimes I just wanna take time off to go to church. No, not for Mass but rather, alone. Cause with others, I find it a little pressurizing and being alone means more time to talk. And I'll feel like the only person he's talking to is me. I'm attracted to churches apparently so I can't really seem to concentrate alone. And maybe going through confession would make me feel better. No, not with the Priest because he's a human being. And no matter how much you look at it, he will judge you. I wanna confess to someone who won't. And yes, I believe God won't judge you as long as you're sincere enough.

I have this tendecy to ramble on when I know what I wanna say but I can't seem to say it that way I really want. I guess this really is personal.

Oh, and whoever read this, don't ask me anything cause I won't be able to answer. Actually, I won't wanna answer cause reasons are endless. Thank you (:

xoxo {♥}