Friday, 30 October 2009 ; 22:15 {♥}
Happy Birthday Christine!! :DD
Happy Belated Birthday YuJing and Ita!! :DD
Happy Belated Birthday YuJing and Ita!! :DD
I hope the three of you had a blast and make sure it's a memorable birthday! We only turn 16 once :D
Anyways, I hope you had a fun time today because I did indeed. Crying in the cinema just added to the significance of the date xD Haha. I'm glad you got everything you wanted but there is obviously more gifts to come (: Wait till Tuesday, Ledia and I will make you gain weight! Muahahaha! I know there have been a list of recent events which happened and I'm sorry for making you think you're not important for any part of our friendship. You mean alot to me and I'm sure that when we're going to say "Goodbye", it won't be a goodbye but instead, "See you later! ;D"
I hope our friendship won't die and I wish to see you at my wedding one day :D (no, not as the groom xD) and I wish I'll be attending yours :D It's true after secondary school, we'll move on and make more friends but noone ever said that making new friends meant throwing the older ones away. So, I hope that we'll still be uber close friends even after graduation and to treasure whatever moment we can have together now :D
I really hope in a few years time, you're wish will come true. I meant the wish about getting the potrait tattoo of your grandparents but Kat xD And if you're afraid it'll hurt, you can ask some of us along so we can hold your hand when it hurts the most. It'll be nice to visit L.A. anyways.
So here's my message, don't worry, I won't delete my blog so it'll stay here. ((: Take care dear!
Anyways, I hope you had a fun time today because I did indeed. Crying in the cinema just added to the significance of the date xD Haha. I'm glad you got everything you wanted but there is obviously more gifts to come (: Wait till Tuesday, Ledia and I will make you gain weight! Muahahaha! I know there have been a list of recent events which happened and I'm sorry for making you think you're not important for any part of our friendship. You mean alot to me and I'm sure that when we're going to say "Goodbye", it won't be a goodbye but instead, "See you later! ;D"
I hope our friendship won't die and I wish to see you at my wedding one day :D (no, not as the groom xD) and I wish I'll be attending yours :D It's true after secondary school, we'll move on and make more friends but noone ever said that making new friends meant throwing the older ones away. So, I hope that we'll still be uber close friends even after graduation and to treasure whatever moment we can have together now :D
I really hope in a few years time, you're wish will come true. I meant the wish about getting the potrait tattoo of your grandparents but Kat xD And if you're afraid it'll hurt, you can ask some of us along so we can hold your hand when it hurts the most. It'll be nice to visit L.A. anyways.
So here's my message, don't worry, I won't delete my blog so it'll stay here. ((: Take care dear!
xoxo {♥}
Thursday, 29 October 2009 ; 19:12 {♥}
Had E maths yesterday. Nothing much to say except it was surprisingly easier than I thought it would be. I suppose we can all pass? Hopefully none of us would need to retake E maths next year. I'll be happy with just an A2 lol.
Anyways, after that, went to meet Marvin at Tampines to shop. When we went to pay for our goods, the lady cheated our money ): She refused to give us back our change because she didn't see the extra fucking note dammit. Stupid bitch. Karma would get you, I can bet on it.
After that, went home to shower and yada. Slacked at home abit and then went to meet up with Soon Kiat, Basil, Ledia and Daryl for ice-cream. Soon Kiat was sick so he didn't eat anything. :/ Get well soon! Afterwhich, he went home and the rest of us headed to East Coast. Kinda slacked around at the arcade and then moved on to the playground. Took jumpshots lol. Walked down to the lagoon and then siglap where they ate. It was 3 plus in the morning when Ledia and Daryl left for home. Basil walked to back to my place but we ended up slacking at the lobby till 5+. Conversed about all sorts of things.
And then I got home. I told my mum about it and now she says I can't stay up too late and that the latest would be 12-1 in the morning? She lectured me about how people would see you as a slut and bla bla bla. At least we talked about trust lol. Hmmmhmm~
Anyways, after that, went to meet Marvin at Tampines to shop. When we went to pay for our goods, the lady cheated our money ): She refused to give us back our change because she didn't see the extra fucking note dammit. Stupid bitch. Karma would get you, I can bet on it.
After that, went home to shower and yada. Slacked at home abit and then went to meet up with Soon Kiat, Basil, Ledia and Daryl for ice-cream. Soon Kiat was sick so he didn't eat anything. :/ Get well soon! Afterwhich, he went home and the rest of us headed to East Coast. Kinda slacked around at the arcade and then moved on to the playground. Took jumpshots lol. Walked down to the lagoon and then siglap where they ate. It was 3 plus in the morning when Ledia and Daryl left for home. Basil walked to back to my place but we ended up slacking at the lobby till 5+. Conversed about all sorts of things.
And then I got home. I told my mum about it and now she says I can't stay up too late and that the latest would be 12-1 in the morning? She lectured me about how people would see you as a slut and bla bla bla. At least we talked about trust lol. Hmmmhmm~
xoxo {♥}
Tuesday, 27 October 2009 ; 20:12 {♥}
Alright~ I'm taking a breather since I'm not in the absolute mood to study. I've been distracted these few days. Probably because I've been listening to Trading Yesterday (Now known as Age of Information). Omg. I love their songs although I might say, sometimes they can sound a little similar to each other. Anyways, because of them, I've been thinking about religion alot. Specifically, my religion. Since they're a Christian band and yada. World on Fire really switched my mind on cause recently, I had a nightmare. It was the world ending. I was really terrified and despite it being a dream, I could really feel those emotions. It was really scary.
So what I really wanna say is, I love God. Haha. Weird but I just felt like saying it. I've been thinking about a lot of personal thing that it's difficult to portray my emotions. Alot relating to family, life, school, studies, everything. I also realise I might not be an extremist like some Christians but I prefer being this way. Open minded, maybe I do pick up alot from my Mum. Also having relatives who are Muslim and being somewhat attracted to Buddhism, I guess, I don't believe non-Christians will go to hell. No, I don't guess, I believe they won't. But that doesn't mean I wanna trade away my religion. On the contrary, I love my religion more and more. I love Jesus and God more whenever I learn about other religions. Not that I compare but because.. I dunno, I just do.
Sometimes I just wanna take time off to go to church. No, not for Mass but rather, alone. Cause with others, I find it a little pressurizing and being alone means more time to talk. And I'll feel like the only person he's talking to is me. I'm attracted to churches apparently so I can't really seem to concentrate alone. And maybe going through confession would make me feel better. No, not with the Priest because he's a human being. And no matter how much you look at it, he will judge you. I wanna confess to someone who won't. And yes, I believe God won't judge you as long as you're sincere enough.
I have this tendecy to ramble on when I know what I wanna say but I can't seem to say it that way I really want. I guess this really is personal.
Oh, and whoever read this, don't ask me anything cause I won't be able to answer. Actually, I won't wanna answer cause reasons are endless. Thank you (:
So what I really wanna say is, I love God. Haha. Weird but I just felt like saying it. I've been thinking about a lot of personal thing that it's difficult to portray my emotions. Alot relating to family, life, school, studies, everything. I also realise I might not be an extremist like some Christians but I prefer being this way. Open minded, maybe I do pick up alot from my Mum. Also having relatives who are Muslim and being somewhat attracted to Buddhism, I guess, I don't believe non-Christians will go to hell. No, I don't guess, I believe they won't. But that doesn't mean I wanna trade away my religion. On the contrary, I love my religion more and more. I love Jesus and God more whenever I learn about other religions. Not that I compare but because.. I dunno, I just do.
Sometimes I just wanna take time off to go to church. No, not for Mass but rather, alone. Cause with others, I find it a little pressurizing and being alone means more time to talk. And I'll feel like the only person he's talking to is me. I'm attracted to churches apparently so I can't really seem to concentrate alone. And maybe going through confession would make me feel better. No, not with the Priest because he's a human being. And no matter how much you look at it, he will judge you. I wanna confess to someone who won't. And yes, I believe God won't judge you as long as you're sincere enough.
I have this tendecy to ramble on when I know what I wanna say but I can't seem to say it that way I really want. I guess this really is personal.
Oh, and whoever read this, don't ask me anything cause I won't be able to answer. Actually, I won't wanna answer cause reasons are endless. Thank you (:
Wait, waiting for a sign, crying to the sky
For love to come around so hope won't let me down
Shadows carry on, the light is all but gone
Your promise calls to me, a love so rescue me
There is a hope beyond this night
There is a Savior in the sky
Giving His life to set this world on fire
Here, before the flames begin, may passion burn within
Our anthem as we wait, for love to save the day
There is a hope beyond this night
There is a Savior in the sky
Giving his life to set this world on fire
So as the darkness closes in
Know that the sun will shine again
Bringing salvation to a world on fire
As our king you will bring, Your truth, to guide and keep us
All of hell, can not prevail against Your love
May Your light (waiting for a sign)
Take my life (crying to the sky)
Set my heart (for love to come around)
On fire (so hope won't let me down)
There is a hope beyond this life (May Your light)
There is a Savior in the sky (Take my life)
Giving his life to set this world on fire (Set my heart on fire)
So as the darkness closes in
Know that the sun will shine again
Bringing salvation to a world on fire
xoxo {♥}
Sunday, 25 October 2009 ; 22:21 {♥}
Less than 24 hours from now, our paper will begin and end. As time elapse, the velocity is making me nauseous and agitated. We've waited a few months for this but are we ready? Surely I'm not. I feel lament for my slothful and idling behaviour. I should have been more intent in class and proactive when it comes to completing homework. Remorse, but what's left is only a few hours. Hours given to respite. I've been studying but even with this considerably amount of time, how much did I grasp? Now I feel like just skipping the examination and wait for the ensuing year to come.
Oh, what am I contemplating for? My mum gave me a nice head massage and told me to enjoy the night asleep. The paper is in the afternoon so there is plenty of time to recover and replenish my energy. After this paper is over and done with, there's still E maths but that's something I don't really wanna vex myself with. I'll just practice the night away tomorrow and hopefully Tuesday would become a much better day. After Wednesday, I can start laxing. D&T isn't too difficult and I'm sure I can manage an A1 for the paper if I study constantly, gaily and shrewdly. What's there to not get when you're enjoying the study?
On the 3rd of November, it'll be the day I'll be liberated. Liberated from examinations and stress. For my delectation, I shall return to Dragonica and send my rose pink baby for fixing. Afterwhich I will start Dissidia~ I'll probably play other computer games as well :D Not forgetting to spend many days out with my adored intimate friends ♥
I can't wait for us to dawdle and banter together once again.
Oh, what am I contemplating for? My mum gave me a nice head massage and told me to enjoy the night asleep. The paper is in the afternoon so there is plenty of time to recover and replenish my energy. After this paper is over and done with, there's still E maths but that's something I don't really wanna vex myself with. I'll just practice the night away tomorrow and hopefully Tuesday would become a much better day. After Wednesday, I can start laxing. D&T isn't too difficult and I'm sure I can manage an A1 for the paper if I study constantly, gaily and shrewdly. What's there to not get when you're enjoying the study?
On the 3rd of November, it'll be the day I'll be liberated. Liberated from examinations and stress. For my delectation, I shall return to Dragonica and send my rose pink baby for fixing. Afterwhich I will start Dissidia~ I'll probably play other computer games as well :D Not forgetting to spend many days out with my adored intimate friends ♥
I can't wait for us to dawdle and banter together once again.
Take care; ♥
xoxo {♥}
; 07:09 {♥}
Tumbling and turning, I had serious issues falling asleep yesterday night. I slept at 4 in the morning. Or close. It's 7am now and I was woken by a beautiful song. Today morning, I fell in love again.
And there you stand opened heart--opened doors
full of life with the world that's wanting more.
But I can see when the lights start to fade,
the day is done and your smile has gone away.
Let me raise you up.
Let me be your love.
May I hold you
as you fall to sleep,
when the world is closing in
and you can't breathe.
May I love you.
May I be your shield.
When no one can be found
may I lay you down.
All I want is to keep you safe from the cold...
to give you all that your heart needs the most.
Let me raise you up
Let me be your love
May I hold you (hold you)
as you fall to sleep.
When the world is closing in
and you can't breathe,
may I love you. (love you)
May I be your shield.
When no one can be found,
may I lay you down.
All that's made me (made me)
Is all worth trading (worth trading)
just to have one moment with you.
So I will let go (will let go)
all that I know (that I know)
knowing that you're here with me.
For your love is changing me.
May I hold you
as you fall to sleep.
When the world is closing in
and you can't breathe,
may I love you.
May I be your shield.
when no one can be found
may I lay you down.
-Trading Yesterday; ♥
Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide beyond believing
To know why hope dies
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown
And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we called home
Passing the graves of the unknown
As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
And the reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
Love gone for so long
This day's ending is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all I hold
And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on
But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning
Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced
All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over
There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer
And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on
But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning
Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced
All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over
There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer all
Yes his love will conquer all
Yesterday I died, tomorrows bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
-Trading Yesterday; ♥
xoxo {♥}
Saturday, 24 October 2009 ; 04:03 {♥}
Finally, my study mood is back. Been doing maths today cause Emily came over. Kinda distractive but I suppose I did at least something. And due to our study today, my mood is back! I finally started doing some english work, mostly vocabulary and comprehension. I'll probably bid to do a good composition tomorrow but nobody would be around to read and check unfortunately. I really hope we manage to do well for our papers but even if we don't attain our wishful grade, I suppose we'll just have to take this as a good attempt. Besides, we learn through failure because we remember our flaws the most.
It's time for bed it seems. I'm gonna continue work tomorrow. Hopefully I'll stop being so sluggish and actually manage to wake up slightly earlier than my typical waking time. Maybe breakfast would actually be breakfast.
Oh, and as tardy as I can become, I just realised that all of my O level papers are held in the afternoon. It's an advantage as I can wake up later than usual but it's a disadvantage because usually my mind is at it's most active in the morning or night. Screw it. At least chances of missing the paper is zero.
I need to elevate my writing style and vocabulary. I suppose two more days of intense english and possibly elementary mathematics would help ameliorate both my subjects. After these two exams, I'm left with Design & Teachnology. Afterwhich, I'll be liberated.
Goodnight. Or rather, good-almost-dawn. (:
It's time for bed it seems. I'm gonna continue work tomorrow. Hopefully I'll stop being so sluggish and actually manage to wake up slightly earlier than my typical waking time. Maybe breakfast would actually be breakfast.
Oh, and as tardy as I can become, I just realised that all of my O level papers are held in the afternoon. It's an advantage as I can wake up later than usual but it's a disadvantage because usually my mind is at it's most active in the morning or night. Screw it. At least chances of missing the paper is zero.
I need to elevate my writing style and vocabulary. I suppose two more days of intense english and possibly elementary mathematics would help ameliorate both my subjects. After these two exams, I'm left with Design & Teachnology. Afterwhich, I'll be liberated.
Goodnight. Or rather, good-almost-dawn. (:
xoxo {♥}
Thursday, 22 October 2009 ; 23:02 {♥}
I can now conclude that my family members are, indeed, computer geeks. We communicate with our handphones although we're just slacking in the room next door. The other day, my dad was in his room, he actually called me because my mum needed me to set my alarm at 5.45. Apparently I was in my room which is located adjacent to my parents' room. There's only a white wall seperating us (and my mum's closet) but that doesn't change the fact Dad could have walked over to me.
Also, i just receive a text message from my Mum asking me to go over to her room. I don't exactly know why but I wonder why she doesn't just call out my name like usual. Rather eccentric parents. Well, now that is.
And I'm trying my best to not be bothered by something but it's becoming a somewhat difficult task. I really need to focus on my studies now but it's seemingly impossible. Ah fuck it. I'm gonna take care of my headache first and then, O's all the way. I pray I'll be able to do fine.
Also, i just receive a text message from my Mum asking me to go over to her room. I don't exactly know why but I wonder why she doesn't just call out my name like usual. Rather eccentric parents. Well, now that is.
And I'm trying my best to not be bothered by something but it's becoming a somewhat difficult task. I really need to focus on my studies now but it's seemingly impossible. Ah fuck it. I'm gonna take care of my headache first and then, O's all the way. I pray I'll be able to do fine.
xoxo {♥}
Tuesday, 20 October 2009 ; 22:10 {♥}
In this world, there's never such a thing asToo much PINK.
:D
Just to know, I think about you everyday. It's been kinda hectic so it's difficult to talk. I know you miss me too and we'll bond again everyday soon kays? I love you because you've been here with me for a few years now. xoxo
And if you're wondering who or what I'm taking about, it's my darling blog :D
xoxo {♥}
Thursday, 15 October 2009 ; 03:59 {♥}
It's almost time for me to wake up. And I'm still not sleeping. Still not feeling to well. I just hope sleeping would make me feel better. But I do know that my day would be spoilt if my mum started yelling, asking me to wake up. I hate that, alot. Sigh.
egewhwvn eejbve vjhewb gifd vjhb tka bhrj mn bi rhgb er vmn sj veirbgj dveubv eh bqe
argh!
I hate being so moody. I need something. What is it? I wish I knew.
egewhwvn eejbve vjhewb gifd vjhb tka bhrj mn bi rhgb er vmn sj veirbgj dveubv eh bqe
argh!
I hate being so moody. I need something. What is it? I wish I knew.
xoxo {♥}
Wednesday, 14 October 2009 ; 03:21 {♥}
I feel stupid. I wish everyone would just leave me alone. But, with that I know I'll regret one day. I'm really moody and I don't know why. I think the person I hurt most today was my mum. Sigh.. I should pay more attention to her than just telling her off and yelling at all. Despite all that she still loves me. What kind of a daughter am I? :/
Sigh, I know there must be something else keeping my frown a frown but I can't seem to figure out what it is. I feel agitated, pissed, ugly, disgusted, annoyed, irritated, frustrated. I can't seem to think properly now. Maybe mum's right, I'm having serious PMS-es. I even told myself I won't let it get to me but it's really unavoidable huh? Being a girl really sucks major at times.
Goodness, I'm going crazy. Well.. crazier than usual.
P.S. I should give mama a hug and kiss tomorrow morning.
Sigh, I know there must be something else keeping my frown a frown but I can't seem to figure out what it is. I feel agitated, pissed, ugly, disgusted, annoyed, irritated, frustrated. I can't seem to think properly now. Maybe mum's right, I'm having serious PMS-es. I even told myself I won't let it get to me but it's really unavoidable huh? Being a girl really sucks major at times.
Goodness, I'm going crazy. Well.. crazier than usual.
P.S. I should give mama a hug and kiss tomorrow morning.
xoxo {♥}
Monday, 12 October 2009 ; 00:11 {♥}
Sadly, I don't have anything to blog about. Lol. Started playing Dragonica and there's POA N's tomorrow. The last paper and we're free on our N's baby :DD then come O's... -.- bleh
This post is really to tell you all I havn't forgotten about blogging yet (:
This post is really to tell you all I havn't forgotten about blogging yet (:
xoxo {♥}
Monday, 5 October 2009 ; 20:16 {♥}
Okay, tell me Craig Mabbitt is hot cause I know he is ♥♥♥
He's married with a little daughter though :P
Something - Escape the Fate
So now you're running
it's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
you're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me
I've treated you badly
But I am still here
Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
that's how you make me
Sometimes I question why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy
Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
we've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy
Can you help me understand?
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
You know I would wait for ever
Yes I would wait (I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes I would wait
And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant
Something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
xoxo {♥}
Saturday, 3 October 2009 ; 21:27 {♥}
I'm taking a break from cleaning. Yes, CLEANING. NOT STUDYING. You know why? Because of a particullar son of a bitch.
I hate you. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE YOU! I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK WE DID TO YOU TO DESERVE ALL THIS CRAP! I ACTUALLY THOUGHT WE TREATED YOU FAIRLY NICE IN THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR BUT HOW DARE YOU STEAL FROM US. WE KNEW YOU TOOK LITTLE THINGS FROM US. BUT MOST OF THE TIME WE CLOSED ONE FUCKING EYE. AND THEN WHEN DAD WAS AWAY, YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF MY MUM, MYSELF TO TAKE MY MUM'S CARD, KEY TO TRANSFER 6.8 FUCKING K. WHERE THE HELL THE MONEY IS, I DON'T FUCKING KNOW. 6.8K IS ALOT OF MONEY YOU BITCH AND THAT MONEY WAS ACTUALLY MEANT FOR ANY FUTURE EDUCATION WHATS SO EVER! OUR FUCKING EDUCATION! THE MONEY COULD MEANT I COULD GO TO FUCKING UNIVERSITY! IT'S NOT THAT WE DON'T HAVE ENOUGH BUT YOU'RE MAKING IT MORE DIFFICULT FOR MY FUCKING FAMILY! WE ALREADY SPEND SO MUCH BECAUSE OF MY MUM'S CONDITION AND MY DAD IS THE ONLY ONE WORKING IN THE FUCKING HOUSE OF 6! WE EVEN HAVE RELATIVES TO TAKE CARE OF AND YOU THINK DOING SOMETHING LIKE THIS IS FUCKING FUNNY!? YOU SAY YOU'RE A CHRISTIAN BUT GOD! YOU'RE A FUCKING DISGRACE DISGRACE DISGRACE!! YOU GIVE GOD A BAD NAME AND I PRAY THAT YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU FUCKING DESERVE! YOU'RE REALLY THE WORST! I KNOW WE WON'T GET OUR MONEY BACK SO I BID YOU HAVE A GOOD TIME IN JAIL. YES. JAIL YOU FUCKING BITCH. We're letting the police settle this now. ARGH!
I hate you. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE YOU! I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK WE DID TO YOU TO DESERVE ALL THIS CRAP! I ACTUALLY THOUGHT WE TREATED YOU FAIRLY NICE IN THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR BUT HOW DARE YOU STEAL FROM US. WE KNEW YOU TOOK LITTLE THINGS FROM US. BUT MOST OF THE TIME WE CLOSED ONE FUCKING EYE. AND THEN WHEN DAD WAS AWAY, YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF MY MUM, MYSELF TO TAKE MY MUM'S CARD, KEY TO TRANSFER 6.8 FUCKING K. WHERE THE HELL THE MONEY IS, I DON'T FUCKING KNOW. 6.8K IS ALOT OF MONEY YOU BITCH AND THAT MONEY WAS ACTUALLY MEANT FOR ANY FUTURE EDUCATION WHATS SO EVER! OUR FUCKING EDUCATION! THE MONEY COULD MEANT I COULD GO TO FUCKING UNIVERSITY! IT'S NOT THAT WE DON'T HAVE ENOUGH BUT YOU'RE MAKING IT MORE DIFFICULT FOR MY FUCKING FAMILY! WE ALREADY SPEND SO MUCH BECAUSE OF MY MUM'S CONDITION AND MY DAD IS THE ONLY ONE WORKING IN THE FUCKING HOUSE OF 6! WE EVEN HAVE RELATIVES TO TAKE CARE OF AND YOU THINK DOING SOMETHING LIKE THIS IS FUCKING FUNNY!? YOU SAY YOU'RE A CHRISTIAN BUT GOD! YOU'RE A FUCKING DISGRACE DISGRACE DISGRACE!! YOU GIVE GOD A BAD NAME AND I PRAY THAT YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU FUCKING DESERVE! YOU'RE REALLY THE WORST! I KNOW WE WON'T GET OUR MONEY BACK SO I BID YOU HAVE A GOOD TIME IN JAIL. YES. JAIL YOU FUCKING BITCH. We're letting the police settle this now. ARGH!
xoxo {♥}
Friday, 2 October 2009 ; 21:56 {♥}
It's been a while since I blog blogged. Text and etc so I shall share something small but it made me feel so touched.
On Tuesday, we went out to tampines. Did our usual loitering and crap. On the bus back home, Christine and I were sitting at our same usual position on the first level of the bus. When we were waiting for everyone to board the bus, there was a boy(about sec 1-2) and his little sister. His little sister tapped her ezlink card onto the machine thinggy but it kept on beeping. She had no money in her ezlink. So~ her brother actually tried digging out coins to help her out but there wasn't enough. Instead of scolding her (something I would do to my lil sis lol), he actually took the trouble to ask one of the passenger. And he gave the money to his little sister so gently.
When they got off the bus, he was like playing around with her. Omg, I dunno why but it touched me alot. How much he actually loves his little sister and would go through the trouble to help her out without complaining/scolding. Ahh~ And I'm not in the position to judge but they don't look too well off. Which shows they actually have more than we are in terms of love and morality.
I think I'm gonna be a mum when I'm older. I wanna be.
On Tuesday, we went out to tampines. Did our usual loitering and crap. On the bus back home, Christine and I were sitting at our same usual position on the first level of the bus. When we were waiting for everyone to board the bus, there was a boy(about sec 1-2) and his little sister. His little sister tapped her ezlink card onto the machine thinggy but it kept on beeping. She had no money in her ezlink. So~ her brother actually tried digging out coins to help her out but there wasn't enough. Instead of scolding her (something I would do to my lil sis lol), he actually took the trouble to ask one of the passenger. And he gave the money to his little sister so gently.
When they got off the bus, he was like playing around with her. Omg, I dunno why but it touched me alot. How much he actually loves his little sister and would go through the trouble to help her out without complaining/scolding. Ahh~ And I'm not in the position to judge but they don't look too well off. Which shows they actually have more than we are in terms of love and morality.
I think I'm gonna be a mum when I'm older. I wanna be.
xoxo {♥}
Thursday, 1 October 2009 ; 20:15 {♥}
This made me cry :'(
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
xoxo {♥}
