Anyone here remembers my 19 September 2008 post? Lol. If you do then you would have remembered my measurements! lol. I decided i should retake my measurements now, just to see how much I've gained or slimmed down. I don't trust weighing machines because I find that it doesn't exactly write how healthy you are either. Besides, I just wanna reconfirm my body type.

Okay, these were my previous measurements:

chest : waist : hip
36.5" : 28" : 34"

and my current measurements:

chest : waist : hip
35.5" : 27" : 35.5"

okay, I'm pretty happy that my waist went down by one inch but I'm not happy my breasts followed. Lol. And my hip increased. I wonder why. I can't be a pear shape cause, well, I just can't. Ah and yay! I am an hourglass xDD I just need to lose abit of fats then I'll be super happy :D

Okay, that's enough female talk. Bye!

xoxo {♥}

I have stomach issues thesedays. Today during GSR, I actually swallowed my own puke. Gross but true. I hate that feeling. Even now I just wanna vomit and get rid of everything bad. Sigh. And maybe roll around the floor. I need hugs and maybe extra time to sleep. I'm feeling rather tired, sleepy and sluggish now. I don't even feel like doing malay. I came late into class today because of GSR and cher Nora was really nice about it. She didn't even scold me but instead said it was okay when i informed her Mrs Marilyn Soh would apologize in person. Teachers are cool. Heh.

Ah.. so many problems cropped up again but I shall not pry as it doesn't really involve me. It's not my problem but they are sad problems. Jesus, life is really screwed now. But i bet it'll be worse as we grow older. Adulthood is arriving. I don't wanna let go of my friends, my boyfriend, my school life, my family life, my carefree life and everything else but nothing can be done aside from watching every leaf fall, every raindrop plundging into the water surface, staring at bees dying. Ah, my mood has be turned upside down now and my arms fucking hurt because I got burnt under the scorching sun. I didn't scratch them till they turn red so don't worry about me becoming a masochist.

Sleep.. I need sleep.

xoxo {♥}

God, I was really hoping Adam would win. But I suppose the votes point out to Kris~! So lets all congratulate the humble, sweet boy ;D Yeah! Haha. I really enjoy both of them but honestly speaking though I still prefer Adam. He has such excellent pitch control, like really. He can actually HIT the high notes perfectly, which is really a talent. I mean, no offence but Kris seems so banal. Whereas Adam is so fresh and new! I wasn't interested in American Idol after a few seasons because it was all so boring and similar. I will only join in at the later bit and goodness, when Christine told me Adam did screamo, it was like a total turn off for me. Until I actually saw his picture. Yeah, I admit, it's because he looks kinda hot that I kinda wanted to know how he sings and god goodness gracious me, he is fabulous! I absolutely love the high pitch and the fact that when he sings, you just wanna jump out and sing along with the song and not giving a damn whether or not the world finds tou crazy! Seriously, that's how I feel. Kris is good! I admit, but I would enjoy him more if I was staring out aimlessly into the ocean or sitting for a long bus ride home. It's so tranquil and easier to listen to. It really depends on my mood and the situation though ;D.

Oh well. Whatever happened, it happened. I just wanna get both Adam's and Kris'es album when it comes out. Especially Adam. Even though he didn't win, it's obvious he's going to survive on a long-run seeing as that he is so different from so many other contestants.

Flamboyant? Hell yeah! I just don't see why that's a bad factor. He likes to dress up and put on girlie make-up, so what? Gerard Way does the same thing and does he get criticised? Sigh. I don't like people who criticise without a reason really. It's stupid.

Haha. And Adam so isn't screamo, he's Rock and Roll baby! Bring the 80s back! xDD

Ah, and since I'm sms-ing Basil at the same time;

xoxo {♥}

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Yay! I'm back! Haha. Today was definitely a long day. Phew. I woke up only to realise I almost stained the carpet and couch, thank god I didn't. Ah i feel too lazy to blog so I'll just quickly type out what I need to. I went out with Christine in the afternoon to accompany her get her brother's brithday present. Which is a hoodie from UniQlo. It's kinda nice (: Anyways, after that we went to study for a while. E-maths. After that (lol) I came back home to change and to spend time with mum before going out again to meet up with Basil. Met him at Bedok MRT station and headed to Boon Lay where we got lost due to his extremely good sense of direction. Haha! So we finally found the place and I met his parents. I was so freaking nervous and tongue-tied that I didn't know what to say. Dinner was a little awkward cause no one actually talked much. Keke. After that we walked around Jurong Point and headed home (: Ah. It feels so nice to be back! Okay, I'm done blogging and about the cookies, some other time. Nights!

xoxo {♥}

I think I'm gonna blog twice today. Apparently I met Emily at Bedok today, outside NTUC so she could buy her F&N stuff. I helped with the shopping for ingredients cause she's not strong enough to carry everything, hehe. So after grocery shopping, we headed to my place so she could bake and cook because she doesn't have an oven at home so she had to come and use mine :P. So we started baking and Mummy helped us ALOT. We first baked the 'Orange Pumpkin-face Cookies' and it turned out really funny! Cause it expanded and the face we carved = super retarded! xDD I will post up the pictures in my next post. And then we decided to do the fish pie. Before that though, Mum realised that the instructions from her book were missing some parts so she went online to check and yeah! She was right! There were like so many missing parts to the instructions. She also found all the missing parts for the fish pie as well. Thank god she found it before we started. So we made the pie and prepared the rainbow rice. After the preparations we started on the cookies again. Sadly, another failed attempt. She's gonna try adding egg when she's doing the actual piece. Sigh. I was suppose to meet up with Basil tonight but because of the serious lack of time I had to postpone it. Sorry :/ I suppose it rained for a reason as well. Ah goodness. It's already 9 pm and she's still here cooking and baking. When I can finally turn on my laptop, I will post up the pictures. Promise (:

xoxo {♥}

Yeah baby, doesn't it look appetizing? I especially like the lemon and spoon. LOL. Anytoot, I decided on blogging something stupid and random again. Haha! What should I blog about? Oh yeah, the other day I saw a mix blood guy. I think he's about a 2-3 years older then me but god, was he hot. I would like totally go for him but the problem is I'm attracted to 40 year old pot-bellied men. :/ *sigh* Oh, and keep this from Basil, he shouldn't know ;DD Kekekeke~

Oh, and since i declared my hatred for him on my previous post, I suppose it's only right to update the public girls, boys, assholes, bitches, stalkers, kissables,future me, internet and couch. I'm not mad at him anymore :D Instead, we talked awkwardly (Okay, maybe I did) but after a while everything was fine again. Funny huh. Haha! In a few months/years time, we'll be looking back at the situation and laughing at our stupidity! And and, if we ever break-up, I'll be looking back at my post and laughing at my on stupidity for thinking I was stupid at a time I wasn't stupid! Makes sense? I suppose not. Teehee!

Okay, I'm seriously high, retarded and tired now. I almost slept in the shower. Actually, I wanted to but I was afraid mum would start panicking and ends up getting someone to break down the door! That person would see me nude! I can't have that can I? Oh wells~

I suppose I should be sleeping, reading, studying, fucking right now but I just don't feel like it. I'm feeling too lazy to sleep and in such a good mood to just type! Yes! I didn't turn my comp for ONE FULL DAY! That's like, a miracle and something so unexpected for me to do! Jesus! I was studying yesterday so yeah~ Haha. My fingers, can't stop moving!! And I'm pressing the buttons as it gives me pleasure and satisfaction ;D Yeah baby, porn! ♥

Okay, fuck it, I'm nuts. Good Evening for now ;D

P.S. Yes Christine, I'm definitely not lying about sexy fat pot-bellied men ;D rawr~♥

Haha!

xoxo {♥}

I should really be sleeping right now because there is chemistry paper tomorrow and I need my rest. But I just couldn't resist coming here and blogging. I really have so much frustration in me that I wanna punch out. I really really hate this feeling. I'm in remorse right now but I'm not going to share the reason why with anyone. Not friends, strangers nor even my Mum. I'll only share it with God. And do you know what I detest the most? Questioning my religion. I believe in what I believe. If you don't, it doesn't matter because, you don't. But don't say things out so blantly and insensitively. You know, you really hurt me alot. And just to let you know, I wasn't really pissed. I was frustrated. I was in a somber mood for crying out loud! And I'm upset because you didn't detect that. I've never broken down for any other reason aside from movies but those are because of the touching parts. I have soft spots. I was seriously in melancholy today that i felt like puking and collapsing. I was trying to stay awake because of my chemistry paper tomorrow but, it's useless to know everything if I'll automatically forget after I sleep. Today really isn't a good day.

I just hope I'll forget all the bad things soon. And you know, the other day, I was commenting on something that has to do with couple arguements? Well, you can count this as one cause right now, a part of me just hates you so much. But the other part just wants to let go of everything.

xoxo {♥}

Right now, I should be studying really but I wanted to know the lyrics for "Safe and Sound" and my laptop just tempted me. Hehe. Apparently, when I first heard the song, I didn't quite like it but after a while I starting playing the song in the head and decided to download it. Now I'm just like super obsessed with it! I watched the video and Gerard Way sounds soooo hot! Haha. Time to share but I doubt much people would like it. Anyhoo~ This is just for me to reminisce when I reread this post in the far future ;D Toodles~

Lyrics (Because you can't really understand what Kyosuke is saying. LOL)

By the way, in this video, My Chemical Romance's Gerard Way is
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUUUUUUCCKIIIIIING HOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!! :0

By the way the way(lol), this is the new Advent Children Complete Soundtrack ;D It is replacing Kyosuke's "Calling" as it's new theme. I have still yet to watch! Dammit!

xoxo {♥}

Literature paper tomorrow and honestly, I'm not nervous. I'm sure everyone here feels the same. There really isn't a way to study literature really. Haha. Oh wells. I went out to study today with Christine and Syafiq. Apparently Syafiq forgot to inform Marvin of the time and place so he didn't come. Sorry Marvin! I just studied abit of science. Trying to master organic chemistry. I'll have alot of time to study tomorrow so no worries :D I'm just committing suicide by last minute study really but I'm not really in the mood to study so yeah, it won't help much. Anyways, after that we took a pretty long bus ride to parkway to get something. It was really fun walking around and doing what we do best, being nonsensical! Haha. After that I met up with Basil, Clayton and Yong Sheng at the cafe in the library. They really mug huh. A hell lot more than I do xD Muahaha!

After that we headed to Mac so that Clayton could get his take away. Then we made our way home. Basil walked me back. Ah, and it was the first time we held hands ♥ Sorry if it was a little rash. I did things naturally. Teehee ♥ I felt alittle awkward though. Now there are things I wanna say but I don't wanna publicise it so I'll tell you personally kays? Haha. I shall stop blogging now, I'm hungry.

xoxo {♥}

I'm attracted to hot guys. Lol. I know, who isn't right? I remember when I was single, I would always stroll down places only to notice hot ang moh guys. Yeah, sexy. I love Caucasions, maybe because I have caucasion blood in me too. Too bad I can't find a hot caucasion guy. Sigh. Yeah, imagine married to one, and have caucasion kids! Ah! But I think mixed asian and caucasion guys are cute too. Like that guy from church, or mummy's friends son, or yeah.. that other guy. Especially since they are bigger than me, it turns me on a little. Oh god, especially pot-bellied men. These men equals alot of beer equals alot of money! Haha. Whoever said dating hot fat guys is a bad thing? In my opinion there are more advantages than disadvantages. These people can never cheat on you because, let me be candid, they have absolutely nobody to cheat on! Haha. Ugly hot men~ Yeah. It's like, you wanna bang them every now and then. As for skinny asian men, hm.. nah, I'll skip.

It's time like this where you just wanna change your URL and type in some random fat-arse porn website. Porn. I stopped watching it. Maybe I should do start again right now. Yeah, watching fat guys penis and asses. Ew! Goodness! That's gay porn! Yuck!

Anyhoo, if you know me so well, you would have realised this post is total bull. Half of what I said in the first paragraph is true. HALF. Caucasions being hot, yeah, that's 96.4% true. Anyways, I have a skinny asian boyfriend. Erm, yeah. What else should I mention? Hm.. He's a guy. Taller than me.. ah fuck it! Looks don't matter (unless you're some cheating bastard who thinks you look hot with 18" biceps, then THAT is a totally different story) -.-" Health does though. And how much you care/love/pamper/adore/cherish/treasure/regard/etc etc me :D muahaha!

I'm really just wasting my time doing this, so Basil, here's the post ;D

xoxo {♥}

Surprisingly I cried today morning. I woke up at 5 a.m. although the sky deceived me because it looked as if it was only 2-3 in the morning. I woke up due to the sound of the wind hitting the balcony glass door. I opened my eyes just to see the rain pouring and the lightning striking. The flashes caused by the lightning strikes were really horrifying and it caused me to tear. I dunno if I've seen such a storm before but even if I have, this was still different. I stood behind the glass doors to witness the strikes and a few times it felt as if my building got struck. Ah. I felt uneasy. After a while, I heard the sound of gushing water coming from the dining area. I made my way to the dinning area only to find the window open. I quickly closed it fearing that the lightning might struck my arm if I sticked it out. Thank god it didn't. Right now, I'm confuse. Maybe I have a phobia of lightning strikes because I felt so inferior when I looked at them, but then again, in pictures, they look so mesmerising. I really am eccentric. Sigh.

After I made a prayer to God, I stared at the storm in desolation. As I sat there, solitary, I fell asleep.

When I woke up not too long later, my mum greeted me with a cheery good-morning. The atmosphere felt totally different from when it was a few hours ago. The storm cleared and the sky was blue with soft patches of white. How nice the morning was. I slept for a little while longer and celebrated Daddy and Jessie's birthday. We went shopping and I found myself carrying a heap load of bags. It was fun shopping with Mum because she's the only one in my family who is just like me in terms of interest and such. Jessie is such a tomboy and the maid.. okay, lets forget about that.

There are a few things i wanna get now so I'll be updating my wishlist soon! Haha. Oh wells. My post succeeded in turning cheery from emptyness. Hoorah! Even my mood has been lightened. Anyhoo, I'll stop blogging for now, till then;

xoxo {♥}

I woke up at 9 in the morning today. Showered and went to school to take my P.O.A. paper. Haha. I am so gonna flunk it I swear. I just did whatever I thought was right. After the paper we headed to Tampines. It was seriously so crowded so we bought food from LJS and ate at the roof-top. It was a really nice. Ate with Marvin, Yolanda and Christine. We met Syafiq afterwards and walked around. I so want that zipper sleeve-less hoodie from UniQlo! We all must get!

After that I met up with Basil who sent me home. Not all the way cause it's awkward. Sorry.

Not much happened. Emily came over to eat and we headed down to meet up with Albert. We went really nuts~! Haha! I feel nostalgic now. How I miss the old, fat, unattractive and not-so-retarded me. Yeah.

xoxo {♥}

I just finished watching an Indonesian movie not too long back. "Ayat-ayat Cinta". It's a really REALLY sad movie! Especially at the end since it sent me to tears D: I can't believe Maria had to die! Come on! Her nose started bleeding and she learnt how to do the solat, and then, she dies!? I so prefer her over Aisyah! RAWR!

Anyhoo, I shall not stress on movie matters. Basil wanted me to post this so, here it is! About our relationship being slow, I guess it's not too bad. I really appreciate that you wanna take it slow and easy because that's what I'm truly yearning for as well. A patient relationship. I'm not gonna make that same mistake as to rush because at the end of the day, I'll just feel more hurt. In a relationship, I believe both partners are responsible for making things work and you're doing a fine job, really. I feel that somehow I'm just a little demanding, I'm sorry but like you, sometimes I just can't help it. I forgot to mention but whenever I'm with someone, I get really attached. I maybe apathetic in school but that doesn't mean I'm showing my true emotions. Infact, it's the other way round. You should know me, when I'm shy, I don't really say or show much. It's funny but it really contradicts the way I behave with my clique. It's not that I'm different around you, okay, maybe I am. But, that doesn't mean I'm different in a bad way.Okay, I'm going off point.

Ah! I really dunno what to type. I really like the slow pace we are at.Like you said, lets just go with the momentum. Whatever happens, God wants it to happen and I really put all my faith onto him.

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This is seriously retribution. Not too long ago I laughed and made fun of my sister becasue her laptop broke down but now I'm using it to blog. The irony. Apparently I can't seem to start it up because of a really unknown and fucked reason. My sister is just being nice to let me use her laptop. Yuck, white kayboards but I can't really complain can I? Sigh. I so wanna watch "ayat-ayat cinta". Syafiq was the one who introduced the movie to me. It's an indonesian movie that focuses alot of religion. Cool eh? Anyhoo, i really hope letting my computer rest would do good. I don't think I wanna tell Dad what happened Lol. He'll probably nag at me telling me I should have taken better care of it. I guess I'll try fixing it on my own for the time-being. I really should have learnt my lesson now :/ Ah phoo!

I so desperately, need some rest. Basil, you should rest too. POA paper two tomorrow. Allelujah to having to wake up later baby! I guess I'll come back to blog again soon. Or, maybe not. Byes!

xoxo {♥}

Had Malay and Social Studies paper today. I have a feeling I'm like going to flunk really badly. But what's done is done I guess. I care more for English anyways. Not much happened today. Karangan was quite sad because the plot was about remorse. I enjoyed writing it though, had fun surprisingly. Surat Kiriman was shit. Literally. How much can you write about the cleanliness of the toilet? The complain part was easy (well, generally, complaining IS easy) but the suggestions to improve it was fuck. How the hell can you improve the number of people flushing? -.-" Christ. Anyhoo, had social studies. Apparently i studied the topics that DIDN'T come out for SEQ. Genius eh? But i did on globalisation nonetheless. I couldn't think was was the other factor for key driving force. The given factor was Communication. I wrote Transportation and was pondering whether or not Transnation Corporations was the other factor. I was stuck inbetween yes and no but decided to go with it anyways. I was right! Lol.

There won't be any school for us tomorrow due to E-learning day but I suppose I'll be going back for POA rememdial. Initially I didn't want to but when i got back not too long ago, Mum told me her church friends will be coming over tomorrow and I switched my mind on a whim. I so don't want to be with a bunch of people at my home, sitting down and doing rosary prayers. What a day to pick. But I'll be able to meet up with my clique tomorrow so it's fine ;D

xoxo {♥}

Examinations, god. Tomorrow we'll be having our joyous mother tongue and social studies paper! Joyous! HA-HA. VERY FUNNY. Fuck it, I'm lame and tired. Anyhoo~ exam papers tomorrow or what marvin calls "pop quiz" -.-" Two of my weakest subjects, mother tongue and social studies. Well, it'll be nice to get it done and over with yeah? After tomorrow it'll be E-learning day. Teachers have such great ideas! Surprising us with an E-learning day out of no where and into the center! :D Yeah, can't you tell, I'm feeling really gleeful! At least we have an extra day to cram! Speaking of crams, my blood hasn't flown out yet. It's been quite a while, I wonder if I'm sick, weird or just plain abnormal right now. Wait- I AM crazy! Haha. it almost slipped out of my mind~

Honestly speaking, I don't even see the point of this post. It's really an incoherent post with no sense and meaning. Anyways, let's add a little significance kays?

xoxo {♥}

I'm blogging again. There are some good things to blog about today :D. I stayed back in school till about 5 to finish up Design and Technology with Marvin and Jing Quan. Syafiq went up the the computer lab with Lutfi to do Food and Nutrition work thinggy. Kept bullying Jing Quan, teehee. We finished out material list and production plan. Headed to Tampines after. We treated Syafiq to Pasta Mania since it's like his first time! Felt super duper proud of myself just to see 'Daddy''s joyous face! Haha! You're welcome! xDD


Anyways, after that he treated me to ice-cream cone! :D Only Marvin didn't eat any. Went to Tampines 1 so I could buy stuff from Yamakawa again! That supermarket is really cool! I love their Japanese products :D Bought Fanta Grape and Ramune yogurt. Went exploring the place and when it's really empty, the place seems even better! Haha~ It's really cool! xDD
Anyhoo~ I think I've talked about too many happy things for now :D I need to say something to someone and I find it a need to be publicised.

xoxo {♥}

I was playing half way when I suddenly thought of something. Judgement day. I'm sure everyone is wondering and worried what may become of us when the world comes to an end, lets see now. Is the world ending really such a sad thing? I dunno but when I think about it, I don't feel despair or remorse, but relief. I mean, if God wanted to end the world, then he should do so. Human beings, do we truly deserve to dormant? We've sined so much, killed so many, neglected our dying kids. Animals are endangered and extinct because of us. I'm sure there are alot of people out there who deserve to live on, helping others and loving others but, are the numbers that big? Look at the mojority, how sullied and tainted their hearts are. We are the ones killing the world and yet we take no responsibility for it. How selfish we really are.

I for one, see nothing wrong in dying. At least, we die together. No feelings of regret, sadness, mournfulness would we have to go through. Yes, that'll be lovely. I'm not a sadist or a masochist really but, just speaking for what i truly feel. I hope God would create a new world and I hope to be one of the first to exist so that I can truly see how the world was like before. I don't know if we will be reborn but I hope we do. We might not be able to remember and conjure what has happened before but it's fine. We could always just start anew.

Maybe, just maybe this isn't the first time the world has ended. Maybe, before Adam and Eve was created, the world exploded and God created a new world, our world. Maybe worlds are not meant to be sustained. Maybe we'll wake up the next day as a baby in a futuristic world. Maybe we'll wake up in the same body reliving our past. Maybe we'll wake up in heaven, on bed-shaped clouds. I dunno, I don't think anyone does. It's just a nice fantasy to live in.

What if the world doesn't end, I suppose we'll have to die sooner or later as well. A more painful disheartening death of our loved ones but we'll be able to pull through sooner or later. The yearning to meet up with them would probably overcome our souls. Honestly speaking, I want to grow up, get a job, get married, have kids, have grandkids, die. But if it isn't going to happen, then, it won't. I'm contented with what I have now, really. Great parents, lovable siblings, cherished friends, adored boyfriend, caring teachers and glorious God.

Yes, even without corrupt things like money, sex, alcohol, cigarettes, murder, I'm truly gratified.

xoxo {♥}

Okay, I know this is rather stupid but I found it funny and it lightened my mood alot!

I was playing atlantica just now and I killed the Minotaur King! It was a first attempt and I almost died xD All my mercenaries were dead and I had a life of 26/2600++ LOL. And I was really glad when I won! Michelle is triumphant! Muahaha!

Anyways, another funny thing happened. Christine called me to tell me something Yolanda told her about a certain 2 girls, Basil and Marvin ;D I don't wanna reveal what it is here so if you're interested, ask! Anyhoo, I wanted to ask her if I could tell Basil what happened so I happily typed the message on the phone (I didn't realise she was online xD) and sent it to the most recent number sent.. Guess who i sent it to? HAHA! BASIL! xDD I realised right after i sent the message and my reaction was really just "What the fuck!?" I couldn't stop laughing at my stupidity! I'm such an air-head sometimes. Sigh. After that she replied me on MSN saying that I could so now I'm patiently waiting for Basil to reply me. Heh.

I feel so light once again. I really am having mood swings. Better wear a pad tomorrow :/

xoxo {♥}

For some unknown reason, I feel so fucking pissed now. I was in a happy mood in the morning, jovial, ecstatic, cheerful, idiotic. After playing computer games, I had the sudden urge to study, I took out my social studies book, opened up to the front page of Globalization and was about to study. After highlighting a few points, I remembered my files are in a messy, so, diligent (for that moment) Michelle went to pick up her whole bunch of files from her cupboard. I searched for my scattered pieces of paper and got them to rejoin for another paper reunion! Yay. -.-"

After doing some filing my mum stood up at her same spot, it's her everyday therapy. I was just filing and filing and feeling alittle agitated. She started asking me so many nonsensical questions, questions I don't know how/want to answer. I just felt to fucking annoyed at that moment. The funny thing, usually I'll be glad to be all idiotic with her but.. this time, I really didn't wanna give a fucking fuck. Then my sister came along and sat opposite of me, reading. I didn't mind that except my mum started nagging at her and then she started shouting back. The volume of their voices exceeded my fucking music. I really felt like yelling at them.

So after a while, Jeff asked me if i wanted to accompany him down to the gym to do some exercise. I agreed. Before i left, I had to prepare of course. And even that sent me to aggravation. I'm not going to elaborate because I feel that the reasons are really plain ridiculous.

When I was downstairs, i felt so light and calm. I didn't feel totally pissed. I vented my imaginary anger on the stepping machine for about 15 minutes and ab exercises. Went back up after about an hour. I took a shower and started filing again. For some reason, my anger came back. I dunno why but the view of my mum, sister and dad just vexed me. I started sms-ing Basil about all this shit but.. I still felt really annoyed. I dunno. Mood swings maybe. I really, oh, really, feel like punching the wall till my knuckles, fingers, hands, arms bleed. I fucking do.

Apparently some virus was sent to me on MSN, I didn't fucking accept it but I just got it before I could even open the chat box. Some bitch. So many fucking problems now. Mother fuckers who fucking created these fucking viruses should go to fucking hell for all I fucking care right now. Bitches and Bastards alike. Nabe.

By the way, just to add colour onto my plain and boring blog, the new pencil case i bought with Marvin and Christine made me smile for a while. Honestly speaking, I don't really know why.

xoxo {♥}

Right now my arms are stretched out infront of me, pushing on little buttons with weird alphabets on it. Every wonder why the alphabets are not in any particular order? Funny huh. Anyways, my reason for blogging isn't to complain or protest about the order, infact let me start off with my day.

I went out with Basil to "study". We went to the airport.. yes. LOL. It's one of the best places to visit when there is a contagious disease spreading around. We traveled from terminal 3 to terminal 2 which i now find rather hilarious since we could have gone to terminal 2 from the freaking MRT station. Well, we did waste alittle bit of time. We studied at Starbucks. I only did a few E-maths questions before my mind drifted and I started to feel alittle sluggish. We talked about all sorts of things and tried multiple of time just to distract him.. I guess it worked sometimes ;D

After he did some A-maths, we loitered around the place and headed to Aaron's place so he can borrow his book. He lives near Emily apparently. Lol. On the way there however, we were spotted and our proof of existence during that time and place was taken. I know, dammit. But it doesn't matter since the worse that could happen isn't related to the end of the world. We took the bus and he met up with Daryl at some place. I headed home and I'm here where I am now.

Typing is so much fun these days, I don't know why but I really feel cheerful when I'm just typing away. I can put emotions into this lifeless blog, although readers may not feel it but I can and that's what is most important yeah? Alright, I'm really just glibing away.

I had alot of fun today despite Emily not being able to meet me. (We'll meet up soon yeah babe ;D) I manged to walk alot today and I like that, maybe we should take a walk along the beach again but towards Changi, so I replace the foul memories that I have. Ah. To put it simply, after the exams, lets spend more time together whenever we can okays? I ♥ You :D

xoxo {♥}

You know, I think I'm gonna try blogging everyday and at any moment I feel like it, just to keep up with my life and any random things happening. I'm still bummed out because of English but whatever. Fuck all this. I don't give a fuck anymore. I only just started studying English so I shouldn't be expecting myself to do well. Studying English. Sounds impossible yeah? But I suppose there really is a way to improve beyong reading books. Practice makes perfect I suppose, so I'm gonna practice for my next comprehension and vocabulary. Summary wise, i must do the same. Anyways, I'm sure it's okay if we don't know all the vocabuary words because, who does? I might not know the words in the passage but that doesn't mean I'm not clueless of other words either. Just unlucky. Sigh. I feel as if I'm jsut posting this up to make myself feel better.. I'm trying but sometimes i just have this depressing feelings which overcome me. Bloody.

I laugh at videos to take my mind off things but it never fails to come back. Oh god, I wish i got paper so I can get it done and over with. Everything is a learning experience, I understand that but I can't THINK that. I'm pressurizing myself too much and I fucking hate that. Jesus. I wish the world would end soon so we can all be reborn into a new, better world. Seriously.

xoxo {♥}