Sweet oh Sweet Lullaby ♥

Wednesday, 25 March 2009 ; 21:15 {♥}

Okay.. i've been having issues. Emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing emoing and so on.. I may not look like it but i'm feeling rather melancholily these days. Notice how different my post is from the others? Sigh. I already told myself I'm over him, and i believed myself. But.. because of a few nice things he said i go over my heels again. This kinda sucks hard doesn't it? I WANT to get over him, i really do. He's living there and currently, I'm living here so why is it so hard for me to forget? I don't even know him properly in the first place. He'll be going to a EVEN further place which gives me more the reason to move on. Goodness! Quickly some to Singapore and go back already! Dx I want to see him off but.. I dunno if I can even contact him to do so. Things are so difficult these days. The most stupidest thing would be, I have my fucking 'O's and 'N's to work my ass on! I WANT to be a lawyer and I want to accel in it. I don't fucking care if the world is going to end at the year 2012. If I work hard, at least I know my life is fulfilled. Maybe God doesn't want us to meet each other.. now. MAYBE. I don't know, I can't forsee the future. I'll just pray and hope that I'll get on with my life here in secondary school. I can look forward into adulthood soon enough. Meaning, that is when i can worry about such a thing. Not now! So why is it so difficult to forget? Maybe cause he's nice? Hah. Or maybe cause I don't know his dark side.. Not yet i hope.

I suppose the best thing now is to just carry on with our studies and such. I shall just treat you as an online friend and squeel to myself if you say anything nice. Noone would know. Shhh.. Maybe I can allow myself to go all kuku and braggy and idiotic, but, I don't think i can like him to such a extent. Sigh, I've made up my mind. Now, i shall like him but only like. I won't expect too much and just appreciate him as an online ally. Like he said, it's impossible for us to go on anywhere anyways, so, I'm just wasting my time. Bleh.

Hopefully my headache goes away soon.

Are you my friend or foe?
Can i lean on your shoulder?
Or would you just brush me off?
Would you rather receive a hug from me?
Or a peck on the cheek?
Are you real or an illusion?
So, am I in my own dellusion?
If so, as my imagination,
Save me;
♥

xoxo {♥}

the person {♥}

I'm a girl.

The name's Michelle
I'm not a very interesting person if you don't know me.
But I guess reading my blog would let you know more.
Talk to me (:

I love Vixens, Valkyries and Kittens

PinkValkyrie@hotmail.co.uk
xoxo

I'm famished {♥}

I need Food

{♥}For exams to come and go
{♥}A little white persian kitty
{♥}New laptops and computers
{♥}~~HD TV~~
{♥}Wrist Tattoo

Books{♥}

and Worms

Current:
Dogs and Goddesses
Done:
Confessions of a Shopaholic
Shopaholic goes to Manhatten
Shopaholic ties the Knot
Shopaholic & Sister
Shopaholic & Baby
The Love Academy
The Matchbreaker
The Bachelorette Party
Just Perfect
Totto-Chan
Mounting Desires
Pride & Prejudice
Charlotte's Web
The Whale Rider
The Curious Incident of the Dog in The Night Time
A Spot of Bother
My Sisters' Keeper
Flipped
Secret Relations
A Million Little Pieces
Veronika Decides to Die
My Friend Leonard
Wanna Read:
The Kite Runner
The Alchemist
The Compass
Emma