My blog :)

I'm back blog!

2010-07-20T19:20:00.003+08:00

I'm bacccck! And I'm here because I'm in the mood to blog. I miss the layout and colours and fonts and etc etc.

School has been, rather, good I guess. I still wanna graduate soon so I can start a new, with new people, environment and projects. I've been slacking alot lately, but I guess it's cause I'm not really panicking for exams. Not yet. I really, don't wanna burn myself out. (:

Anyways, just finished "Veronika Decides to Die" and it was a good book :D I guess I really should cherish life more too. There's simply too much to do and the time given to us is much too little. I've got plenty of books to read now. I guess I'll be starting on "My Friend Leonard" ((:

Goodnight!

Dear blog

2010-07-05T20:28:00.001+08:00

Dear blog, I havn't touched you in a really long time lol. Yeah, I kinda have abandoned you. And I don't really have much to talk about. Things have been well I guess.

Okay, that's it. Goodbye (:

Class tee design

2010-06-16T02:22:00.002+08:00

Just finished class tee designs :3 both front and back. Ahhh. Tired but I still don't feel like sleeping. Anyways, I think, I shall continue with my Lymle fanart is a while :D

Ah, an update about life I guess.

Fuck life, 'nuff said (:

Goodnight :3

P.S. Lymle x Faize FTW!!

P.S.S. I think, I'mma give my future children names from games :3 especially square enix names cause they come out with awesome ones. Though, I'm not crazy enough to name my son Cloud. That's just.. weird :/

Faize and Lymle

2010-06-07T21:23:00.004+08:00

Been a while since I last blogged here lol. Anyways,

Faize and Lymle ♥♥ :DDDD

Ah, Star Ocean tLH ♥ gonna try to get Faize's ending at my next playthrough. :3

Mother tongue

2010-05-31T13:26:00.002+08:00

Okay, had my Mother Tongue O level paper today. Seriously, epic phail! T.T I screwed up a lot of things and yada~ But I'm glad that's over. I'm glad everything's over. Now I can finally enjoy the holidays. Oh? What? Extra lessons? Oh yeah, fuck that.

Break up

2010-05-29T21:34:00.001+08:00

Honestly now, I'm taking this a whole lot better than you think. And I know, you're gonna keep your promises. I trust you. So don't worry too much about things (:

more homework

2010-05-25T21:47:00.002+08:00

How does anyone expect to do homework on a really warm night like this. I've got 3 more paper 2s to finish but heck, I think I'll just complete 1 or 2. I've got no mood to do and today has been mother tongue for the whole effing day. (after 11.30 though)

Damn you!

Super bored!!

2010-05-24T22:36:00.001+08:00

no homework means boredom!! Sigh. Currently listening to fireflight ♥ Also, bogging with my tablet. Feels rather odd but... kinda fun :D

Tabletttttt

2010-05-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

I know I should have been studying buuuuut~ I couldn't help myself but try out the new tablet :DD So this is basically how it was set up completely. Took me quite a long time to fix it all up :/

So... was trying it out and stuff and I finished my first digital art in a day :D I know it's not exactly perfect or nice but I was just trying to play around with layers and stuff. Anyways, any idiot would know who she is (: ANYWAYS, need to start on malay!

let's forget

2010-05-22T20:40:00.002+08:00

I guess trying to blog with the tablet isn't a very good idea. Lol. Anyways. things happened, shit talked about and crap shared. And yet I feel a little out of place. :/ I didn't wanna wake up today morning cause I wasn't in the mood to face anything today. I kept sleeping until I knew I couldn't anymore. So I woke up at 4.30, bathe and had breakfast. Was trying out the tablet and it works like a charm. The screen is even nicer compared to my laptop.

Anyways, I've got malay homework to do (and alot of it) but just don't feel like doing it now. Maybe later, when I'm feeling malay-ish.

Still want sleep though :/

(:

2010-05-18T21:46:00.002+08:00

A thousand 'thank you's to you (:

I woke up, like, a while ago. I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed, didn't feel good waking up at all. There's school tomorrow and this house is just so fucked up. Screw everything. I just wanna sleep and hope I wake up somewhere else. Maybe God could swap my soul with someone and live their life for a change. Maybe, I'll just realise how lucky or unlucky I really am.

Sleeeeeep. ):

Sober

2010-05-16T08:27:00.002+08:00

Last night was effing crazy. Drank whisky with Jeff, Shaun, Basil, Soon Kiat, Emily and Albert. Drank quite alot and got so fucking high. I can't even remember what I said or did but I do remember puking outside the toilet. And seriously, before I always asked myself, "why can't people just hold their puke til they go to the bowl or something?" and now I know why. It's seriously, impossible. -.- I just hope they don't find out who puked there :PP

Anyways, only Soon Kiat and Emily were sober so they went home. Shaun, Albert and Basil crashed at my place and slept in my brothers' room. Due to red bull, I couldn't sleep at all at night. I ended up bathing, trying to sleep, slack in my brother's room, tried to sleep again, bathe again and lied down on the couch. No sleep at all and I got church later D:

Sigh, but feeling sober is super awesome so yeah, lesson learnt; Do not drink so much!!

Dear Retainers

2010-05-13T20:18:00.001+08:00

Dear Retainers,

I hate you. Alot. Thank you for making my gum bleed this morning. For that, I'm skipping you tonight so I can allow my gum to recover. Yeah, screw you. ):

Goodbye.

P.S. I'm too sleepy to study. Shall do chem til I fall asleep tonight. Sigh.

Relax

2010-05-10T16:27:00.001+08:00

We should relax alittle once in a while. Heh, watch this if you're feeling stressed out and stuff :D I promise you, you'll laugh alot :D

Retainers

2010-05-09T23:08:00.001+08:00

OMG. I fucking swear, putting on my retainers again after months of absence FUCKING HURTS. I can't even put them in properly and it's killing my mouth -.- The top one isn't so bad but the bottom one is sooo $#%^%$^@!!!

First I mixed up my chem and physics paper dates and now I can't study properly. Argh! Redemption.

ADAM'S TWITTEEEEERR!!

2010-05-09T18:41:00.002+08:00

Why does Japan have all the luxury of having extremely sexy Lambert pictures in magazines. WHY?! WHY!? Urrrgh. I so need to find out with hotel room Lambert stayed in when he was in SG and which blanket he used and which cup he drank from etc etc. Must stalk...

Oh lol, and his pic is from his twitter ;D He's awesome ♥

Humbaba

2010-05-08T00:50:00.002+08:00

Urrghh. Need someone to help me kill Humbaba but in-game friend is not coming online :/ Damn you!

Also, went shopping with mum and I seriously went shopping instead of helping pick things for her, sis, bro, dad whatever :D Got some weird honey and coconut shampoo and conditioner. I'mma try it on Sunday since tomorrow I'm not washing my hair. Oh, and China Blue soap from Marks and Spencer. Mmmm fragrancy~

Also bought some other products and yeah. I forgot. I think I'm tired at this moment. And my head hurts. Goodnight. And I will greet the next morning with China Blue again~

Books and Atlantica

2010-05-05T18:52:00.001+08:00

Dear books and Atlantica,

I'm sorry I'm neglecting you two but for now, I need to study. Don't worry, after exams, I will read and play you (:

Lotsa love;
Your reader/player

P.S. PS3, I miss you too ♥

You piece of shit -.-

2010-05-03T00:20:00.002+08:00

Urrrgh! Just a while ago, a piece of shit tried adding me as a friend on facebook. -.- Guess what you piece of shit, I just ignored you and forever will. For a fucking long time, I've been trying to erase you from my fucking life, it's been going so fucking well until you decided to fucking add me -.- I accept random requests from random people cause I think they just wanna make friends with me and some of them actually make it to my pen-pal list but not you bitch. YOU WILL NEVER BE A FUCKING FRIEND OF MINE EVER. EVER. READ MY FUCKING WORDS. NEVER IN MY LIFE. (provided you're reading and I fucking hope not!)

You were the worst thing that happened in my life. Even worst than my mum falling ill, even worst than my brother smoking, even worst than whatever shit that happened to me put together. YOU'RE THE FUCKING WORST and I hope you fucking get that.

Please, don't try to add yourself into my life cause you're just a fucking annoying/irritating/ugly zit waiting to be popped and gotten rid off. So why should I add you in if I'm gonna dispose you anyways? Oh yes! So I can do so the meanest possible way and be your fucking nightmare. But, I'm too nice for that (:

Seriously, I want us to be strangers. Like, "I-dont-know-you-and-just-wanna-avoid-you-cause-you're-so-freaking-ugly-and-irritating-and-gross-and-retarded(in a bad way)-and-yeah-ugly." cause I really wish you'll disappear. Best from this world. I know, it's a sin to curse but I hate you this.fucking.much.

And people who think I'm overreacting, maybe I am but hey, I can feel whatever I want. Especially since all feelings of contempt goes to you, ass.

On a brighter note, I think studying at the dining room area works better for me. Too many distractions here. Lol.

Birthday dinner at CHIJMES

2010-05-01T19:03:00.003+08:00

I just got back from CHIJMES. Apparently my brother THOUGHT he got his pay today but he didn't, so I had to lend him 150 for my own birthday dinner ): Nvm, I'm getting back 180 since there's interest >D Kekekekeke

Anyways, headed to Plaza Sing first cause he wanted to meet Shaun for a movie but the tickets were all sold out so we went to the grand cathay but astons was full so we decided to cab down to Marina. Half-way there, I made a comment saying that I've always wanted to go to CHIJMES but I didn't mean tonight, however, he abruptly stopped the cab driver and we went to CHIJMES lol. Ate at the place below (the one that looks like rome). Jessie and I shared a 10" pizza while Shaun bought garlic bread. He gave Jessie and I one long piece each. Jessie had orange juice. Shaun, Jeff and I had Johnnie Walker ;D but mine with added coke :|

After eating, Jeff and Jessie bought another 2 glasses of orange juice and Shaun was browsing through the menu. In the end, he chose a drink called... Blowjob. LOL. And the convo went like...

Waitress: What can I get you?
Shaun: Can I order blowjob?
Waitress: One blowjob? Okay

*after a while*

Jeff: Hey Shaun, I dare you to ask the Waitress for your blowjob.
Shaun: Erm, excuse me, just now I ordered a blowjob.
Waitress: Oh, you ordered a blowjob?
Shaun: Yeah I did, how long would it take?
Waitress: Erm, wait a moment

*blowjob comes*

HEHEHEHEHEHEHE sick people naming drinks sick names. Apparently, the blowjob was nice and that the really tiny drink caused 18 bucks. All in all, our bill for 4 people went up to $147. Nice..

Slowly

2010-04-30T22:26:00.002+08:00

Everything's gonna be over soon.
Can't say I'm anticipating it
but I can't say I don't either.
Mid-years, prelim, 'o' levels.
I'm looking forward to poly
because of the courses.
But,
I'm definitely not looking forward,
to leaving everyone behind.
Hopefully,
we'll keep in touch.

xx

Back to Indonesia

2010-04-29T21:26:00.003+08:00

Lol. I look like a postcard baby :P Anyways, if I'm going back to Indonesia next year, I might as well come back here. The water is crystal clear blue and it's so pretty. This way, I won't think of going back as a drag or something I really dislike. I really wanna go back here ):

Female singers

2010-04-29T19:55:00.002+08:00

:DDDDD Awesome! Almost all of the great female vocalists are in this ♥

Except Miley. -.- Annoying much. Jojo should have been put in, not you ): hehe, personal preference.

Night time (:

2010-04-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

This is how I spend my nights (: Yeah, double comp-ing.

Reading

2010-04-26T15:22:00.003+08:00

Last night, I was reading and then I smiled. Cause something touched me (: *Refer to Facebook lol* Reading really does take the edge off things and transports you to a different place as a different someone and different life. Maybe that's why I'm in love with The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time as well as A Million Little Pieces. These books were written as the narrator was thinking, watching, smelling, tasting etc etc and it's captivating because they are not normal. One is suffering from Autism and the other his addiction but nonetheless, both are fighting and both thoughts are shared. I love books which really pulls it's readers in and at the end of the day, we'll view life more differently.

Reading is definitely a healthy escape, depending on the book you choose to read. (:

Anyways, going to church on the 23rd I think. Matthew's confirmation and I so can't skip this opportunity to see the Arc Bishop live kekekekeke. God bless ;D

sick to the stomach

2010-04-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

I feel sick right now. Nauseous for God knows what reason. Maybe cause I ate and then immediately laid down. Maybe my headaches were caused by too much gaming, music and lack of fresh air. I really should take better care of myself. Maybe drinking water would help but I don't feel like doing anything now. It's so warm and the only thing I can do is complain and rant. God, I need my book, a nice hammock by the beach and clear skies so it wouldn't rain.

Or maybe if I give it time, everything would just go. Yeah, I think I'm PMS-ing ):

Bodyclock

2010-04-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

Sigh. Screw my body clock.

Tomorrow, shall mug on mother tongue. How? I.Don't.Know. But only if you know who is available. Sweeeee~

Earpiece

2010-04-22T22:16:00.003+08:00

My earpiece finally died. Lol. I can still listen to music but the right piece is kinda screwed. Oh well, I'll have to buy a new one really soon. Maybe tomorrow? If I have time after school. I needa get foolscape paper as well.

Ugh, my floor is all sticky and apparently there are.. 17 different epilogues to heavy rain -.- zzz. I unlocked like... 4 already. I can unlock another 3 and probably do the rest some other time. Once I get my platinum for this I'm gonna continue Final Fantasy XIII cause I think I've neglected her for too long. Sorry Lightning :P After Lightning, I'mma get my platinum for Assassin's Creed 2. Kinda miss that game and I'm almost to my Platinum (: 91% I think.

Ah, I feel tired. I've done my homework. School is such a boreeee now. Friends are the only reason for going. I'm sleepy. My earpiece ugh. My hair feels nice now. Pink is love ♥ And I feel super warm -.-

Well, that's it. Bye (:

Hello

2010-04-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged. Nothing interesting except I managed to finish Heavy Rain and witnessed 2 endings (: The "Yay!" one and the "OMG WHY THE FUCK DID THEY DO THAT?!?" one (: Hur hur hur~ But I still have a lot to do cause there are like.. a few more endings. Ends up there's like only 7 endings -.- zzzzzz.. some basket posted saying 22 and I believed him. Sigh. I dunno if I have to save or if I can just reload chapters. Oh well~ I shall harvest trophies instead.

Anyways, I think I've got a few health problems right now. One of them is kinda private so I won't say :| haha but today I saw red spots on my thighs and they are still there although not very visible. I dunno how or why the red spots came about but I'm starting to get worried. Maybe I'm allergic to something, I dunno. If this goes on then, I shall talk to my parents about seeing a doctor. Maybe it's my change of diet, bleh.

Sigh, these few days have been slack and tiring. We don't do much but we're tired. God.

Oh yeah, Norman Jayden is awesome! ♥ :DDD

Lost then Found

2010-04-18T00:16:00.003+08:00

OMG. I fucking love her! And One Republic in this. Mostly her. Hehe~ But wow. I feel like buying her album just to support her. If she ever comes to Singapore, definitely, I will go to her concert. Haha, Adam Lambert as well but I doubt he'll be coming again anytime soon. Sigh.

I’m staring at tears on the pages
Of letters that I never could write
And I know love isn’t painless
But it’s worth the risk; it’s worth the fight
I’m playing it over and over
I wish that I could turn back time
Maybe we were wrong but we could be right

Why do we say things we can’t take back?
And why do we miss what we never had?
Both of us fell to the ground
And love was so lost it couldn’t be found
What would it take to forget who’s blamed
I’m tired of crying at the sound of your name
Why don’t we turn this around
Love ain’t the enemy
Don’t you wanna be lost then found…

Lost then found...
Lost then found...
Love ain’t the enemy
We could be lost then found

Empty glasses and table’s
Echoes fill these rooms
The memories go where we go
They're like the suitcase that you never lose
If the good Lord’s eye is upon me
I swear to make things right
Whatever we lost I know we can find

Why do we say things we can’t take back?
And why do we miss what we never had?
Both of us fell to the ground
And love was so lost it couldn’t be found
What would it take to forget who’s blamed
I’m tired of crying at the sound of your name
Why don’t we turn this around
Love ain’t the enemy
Don’t you wanna be lost then found…

The words come pouring out, can’t stop the rain (Lost then found)
Wish that you could take it back but it’s to late it’s too late (Lost then found)

Why do we say things we can’t take back?
And why do we miss what we never had?
Both of us fell to the ground
And love was so lost it couldn’t be found
What would it take to forget who’s blamed
I’m tired of crying at the sound of your name
Why don’t we turn this around
Love ain’t the enemy
Don’t you wanna be lost then found…

lost then found...
lost then found...
love ain’t the enemy we could be lost then found

the words come pouring out, cant stop the rain (Lost then found)
wish that you could take it back but its to late it’s too late.. (Lost then found)

We could be lost then found.

Lost then found.

If I had you

2010-04-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

If I had you,
Life would be the only thing I ever need~!
Yeah, if I had you,
The money, fame and fortune never could compete~!
If I had you!
Life would be a party at the ecstasy~!

Happy Birthday to me :D

2010-04-17T02:29:00.002+08:00

Okay, this will be a quick post before I retreat to bed :P

Anyways, 2 hours and 30 minutes ago, it was my birthday. I never really anticipated for anything cause for the past few years, my birthdays have been rather banal. I'm not complaining but I appreciated every little thing each birthday. This year, was seriously one of the best ones.

Lets start with.. Thanks! :D

GIRLFRIEND!!!! Thank you for your one year early treat to Haagen Dazs :P The unique lemonade was seriously nice and I'll like to go back for another day of dessert one day again too (: Also, thank you for being there today cause it just made the night more perfect. Thanks for the bracelet from Cambodia too :D I love you ♥

Hannah, Emily, Yong Hong and Aaron. Thank you guys for coming tonight (: Yeah Hannah, you're a great table-mate too! And so is Emily :D It's always fun playing around with you guys :D Thanks for the sheep coffee cup ♥

Christine~! Daughter! Too bad you couldn't make it at night but thank you for everything else! :D Thank you for being a good friend this past few years and thank you for the chocolates and free notebook :P Hehee~ ALSO! Thank youuu!! For the Final Fantasy XIII guide book :DD Lightning is prettaye!!

Ledia, Poh Geok and Cinyi. Thank you for the Chip bowl and spoon! It's super cute xDD and eating from it makes me feel like a child again although I'm like, another year older :PP Too bad Poh Geok couldn't make it tonight but still have fun though :DD Hope the both of you reached home safely (:

Sangeetha and baby yoyo! Thank you for the adorable black and pink purse :D I used it today to keep my phone and ez-link :P It's really pretty and handy so I really appreciated it (: Too bad you couldn't make it tonight but nonetheless, everything was great! Hope you guys had a good day too :D Cheers!

Marvin and Khairyll~ AHHH! Thank you!!! For the Cloud posters!! ACC FTW! :DDD Also, thank you Marvin for coming down tonight :P Had fun camwhoring :D And I'mma place the posters where I know I'll see it kekekeke~

Syafiq!! Thank you for the shrunk lingerie! Lol! And the colourful birthday card! I can see you put in alot of effort into doing the colours (: Thank you again! Also, for scaring the shit out of me tonight ): You should really consider playing parts of ghosts for movies or something! hehe! And for the chip bowl too :DD

Yong Sheng, Jun Ting, Selva, Daryl and Wei Ming. Thank you guys for coming down (: Although we're not so close, it means alot that you guys still came :D Thank you for the chocolates and no worries, I won't grow fat (:

Wan Qi and Soon Kiat~ Thank you guys for the cake and picking a really pretty pink delicious one :D Too bad we didn't have candles but I still could make a wish though. Hehe, Wan Qi, next time, maybe we shouldn't do what the boys tell us to :P

My Mum and Dad (: Although I know you won't read this, thank you for the cheque (: I really didn't expect that much and it really gave me a shock. Too much of a shock that I didn't know how to react. Thank you once again and I'll try spending the money wisely. Love you loads ♥

Jessica~ Where's my present? D: lol! Nah, kidding. Thank you for shouting Happy Birthday Michelle into my ear today morning (: And thank you in advance for my future new game KEKEKEKEKEKE

Laura~ Thank you once again for the polka dot hair clip (:

Basil~ Ah.. Thank you for dinner and the surprise :P Was a little disappointed we didn't get to eat the desserts I was saving for ): But nonetheless the surprise was a whole lot better. Thank you for lying to me and cheating with my feelings and making me kiss someone else :PP But really, thank you for planning so much (: We maybe on pause but what the heck, I love you ♥

Jeff! Bring me someplace soon :D I wanna drink!

Anyways, to be truthful, whenever I receive gifts or cards or notes or whatever, I really dunno how to react. Maybe I surpress happiness, shock, love(? lol) too much that I really dunno what to say or do in certain situations. So, just know that I appreciate everything that everyone has given and done for my birthday. This really has been my most memorable. Especially Syafiq's super scary eye make-up D: I'mma get nightmares I bet.

Smile more (:

2010-04-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

I love this picture. You know why? Cause no matter how beaten up the sticker repellent is, it's still smiling. No matter how faded and translucent it looks, it's still smiling. No matter how used up it is, it's still smiling. No matter how terrible it's future may look, it's still smiling. It has no friends and was abandoned but, it's still smiling.

We should be like the sticker repellent. No matter what happens, keep smiling (:

Special?

2010-04-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

There are somethings in life people can call special but that special thing might not mean much to another person. Truthfully, I dislike myself for thinking this way but hey, I've been disappointed too many times every year that I really don't see the importance of it. What's the point if my wasted selfless wish would never be fulfilled. It's been 10 years. What have I been doing wrong? Is it so wrong for wanting something which would benefit someone else more than it will me? Have I been asking for so much that a simple wish made every year for the pass 10 years will never come true? Maybe I'm just waiting for a miracle to happen but now I need to know, when will this miracle ever come true? God, too many questions. Well, at least we have a goal in life. Or a few goals.

Goodnight.

P.S. I realised that whenever I sleep in the evening, I will wake up at 10. -.- Retarded. Next time I'll sleep at 10 and see what time I wake up. Hopefully, the next day.

):

2010-04-12T18:26:00.003+08:00

I swear to God, I can't take the sound of someone puking. I can't take the sight of someone so dear to me shivering, struggling, suffering. I can't take the sight of thinking that person might be .. No, I won't.

If I could toss everything away right now just so she'll get better, I would. God, I'm sorry I asked for so much.

I hate the thought of death, I can't stand it at all. I'm afraid of dying because I'm afraid of losing anyone precious around me and know that no matter what happens, I can't change any of it. These few days, I've been thinking about the past and God, I've taken so many things for granted. Maybe this is punishment and if it is, I'll accept. Just don't hurt anyone else cause of me.

God.

2010-04-11T20:45:00.004+08:00

Why do I feel like slowly, I'm not myself anymore. The other day, I went through little scraps of paper, notes, doodles and pictures just to realise how much I miss myself. How much I miss us. The few years go by so quickly that I can't seem to remember where these memories were stored.

Do you remember how we would always think we're angry at each other when we're actually not? How about the time we'll stay in class, colouring it and decorating it? How about the hours spent on projects presented for only a few minutes, but heck, we had so much fun doing it. How about the days we'll go out almost everyday to eat and hang out? How about the days we'll spend studying together? How about the times we'll always compete in our studies? How about the days and nights we'll spend working together for camps and events? How about the days we'll make fun of each other but never really took it to heart? How about the times we'll think, "Haha, we/I were/was so stupid back then!"? How about the times we'll go home together cause we were the only ones who took the bus on the same side? How about the Wednesdays spent after Art cleaning up the room and being rewarded with sweets? How about how we would go to the General Office to take the class list of the boy we used to like? Or, how about when everyone was just so close and we were friends with practically everyone. We didn't have much conflict, maybe minor ones but in the end, we were still all really good friends.

Thinking about this, I really wonder if growing up is as bad as it looks. Sure there are good points and bad points but, I really miss the beginning of growing up.

And the huge block of text includes almost everyone I can think of. Find yourself (:

1st Year

2010-04-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

It's been a year and I hope you're doing fine. Take care kays? ♥

And thank you again Laura for the early birthday gift and card. Really appreciate it (:

Wow

2010-04-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

Wow. She's simply amazing. I must say this is on par with the recorded version or maybe even better. Leona Lewis is simply wow. O.O

Finished FF:XIII

2010-04-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

I just finished FF:XIII. I'm satisfied cause I got my rank 5 star at the final boss fight (Yeah, judging by the toughness of it, it really isn't that difficult :| ) BUT I feel really empty inside. The ending was sad cause Vanille and Fang sacrificed themselves but at least Serah and Dajh were alright :D It was a relatively good ending but now, like I said, I feel really empty. I know I have many missions to do but after that it'll still be the end lol. Maybe they should create a movie but it won't be that interesting. Anyways, really good game and I enjoyed it :D Now I know I got more time for my books! Oh yes, but I won't stop playing cause I know I have many more trophies to collect ((:

Good-night!

Books

2010-04-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

I figured, since I'm too lazy to study English, I guess I'll just start reading more. Of course comprehension is important but so are my vocabulary and composition. Hopefully, reading more would help. Anyways, I'm sure it'll help me in my lit as well :P Just some books I have at home and wanting to read after 'My Sister's Keeper'.

'A Million Little Pieces' :P

'My Friend Leonard', this comes after AMLP of course.

'The Kite Runner', Heard it's good

And if I can find my book again, I wanna reread 'The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night time' cause I think out of all the books I read so far, this made the biggest impact on me and books. The book which made me fall in love with it so badly. I really REALLY enjoy this book and recommend anyone who hasn't read it to read it.

Oh and I met Matthew at church today :P

That's all, need to get back to SS D:

Vincent glitch

2010-04-04T01:22:00.004+08:00

This made me LOL! xDDD Way to go Square Enix for such an awesome glitch xDD Too bad it's night time now so I need to restrain my laughter -.- Puhwee~

A few things (:

2010-04-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

Today has been rather fruitful. I actually planned on staying home to relax and play Final Fantasy XII hoping to finish it but, my Dad needed help with fixing somethings in the house. Heh. So I helped first by getting rid of paint. I had to use paint stripper and scrap the paint off the stove wall as well as the bathtub. I swear, the paint stripper hurts so effing badly when it gets onto your skin. The solvent is seriously strong and now I'm left with chemical burn marks (see pictures below). Well, at least the bathtub is only blue now and not half-blue half-cream. Was planning on doing the sink as well but we decided to call it a day. I can't burn myself too much. Anyways, after that, helped Dad screw in the nails and fix up the help which is suppose to be put in his room. Was alright since it didn't burn me or anything.

Played my Final Fantasy for a few hours then adjusted my own shelf so I can fit in the huge files at the bottom. Compliment of the day, "Oh wow! You can be a really good construction worker." -.- Thanks, I really wanna be a construction worker when I grow up -.-

Neways, some pictures I wanted to put up but didn't get the chance to :P

^ There are 2 more spots at the end... ^

^ This has got to be the worst ): ^

^ Finally had desert after so long :D ^

^ Guess whose sock. It's 627846. Key the numbers onto your phone and you'll know :P ^

^ Yellow moon from the rooftop. Real pretty ^

^ ChiobuS ^

(: That's all for tonight. Goodbye~

Happy Birthday Soon Kiat! :D

2010-04-02T21:29:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOON KIAT!! :DDDDD

Wish you luck for your O's and life! Hope you had fun last night :P

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Yeah~ I wanna play my Final Fantasy now but my Dad is watching some show thinggy... :| I guess I won't be sleeping early tonight. Go latte!

URRGH

2010-04-01T00:19:00.004+08:00

Right now I'm doing my class T shirt design. I've been at it since I got back home and FINALLY I was ALMOST done. BUUUUUUUT! The fucking programme just HAD TO CRASH! ARGH! This is what I get for not saving and opening too many files at once. SCREW IT! And I thought it looked really cute! -.-

Happy Birthday Yolanda! :D

2010-03-31T22:38:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOLANDA!! :DDDDDD

17 is already so old! No wonder you're the wife/husband :PP Kidding! Anyways, I gave you many wishes already so here's a simple one :D Good luck for 'O's!

xoxo

Now, back to class T...

ouchie ):

2010-03-29T19:38:00.003+08:00

I wonder if I can make my background stop moving. Heh.

Okay, today nothing much happened. I kinda, sadly, accidentally and stupidly poked my head with the writing tip of my pen. I thought I placed the cap back on and wanted to scratch my head but, I didn't put the cap on D: So I poked myself and it took me a rather long time to actually realize the little really painful pressure on my head. Lol. Lesson learnt ):

I just finished homework and I dunno if I have anymore else to do. Today got into trouble cause didn't do summary -.- Lol. Only Yolanda and Cinyi did :P haha nvm, got to sit outside and slacked anyways.

Ahhh.. It's so unnoisy and unfun T.T Syafiq! Get well soon :DD

Church scouting

2010-03-28T20:56:00.005+08:00

So today I woke up kinda early and went back to sleep and woke up again and went back to sleep and finally woke up at 11.45. Showered and was suppose to meet Christine at Bedok MRT platform at 1 but she pushed back the time to 1.30, so i just sat at the dining table and starred out of the window for half an hour drinking 7 up lemon. Yes, I have no life unfortunately :|

Hehe so I left and waited at the platform but something funny happened xD I was waiting and she just boarded the train so when she reached I only received her message and I didn't board so I missed her train :| haha but we met up at citylink anyways, bought milk and went over to buy stuff.

After that walked around Funan looking for my Vaio L but sad to say, I couldn't find it D: Urrgh. Made me so pissed. But we did sit and talk a lot :P

We didn't know what to do next so I asked if she wanted to see St Andrew's Cathedral. For the first time, we actually saw the inside. We couldn't go in though cause service was going on. Haha~ After that we went church scouting cause there were really a lot of churches around the area :P Even transformed churches like CHIJMES.. Hehe Picturesss :DDD

St Joseph Institution. I think the funny thing would be the flirting point :PP

CHIJMES. Okay, I swear, CHIJMES is REALLLLY nice. So many bars inside and it really makes you feel like you're in Europe. Well, that's what Christine and I feel~ x)

Armenian church. I first time I came here, it was for my Mum's friend wedding and I must say, this is the smallest but the most welcoming and cozy church out of all. They even have a graveyard which adds to the atmosphere. Lovely church (:

I took this from literally the back of the church. Yeah, it's that small..

♥

St Andrews. Couldn't really go in cause of the service going on ):

Yup and that's about it. Of course it's better to go there and see :P So Christine and I decided we're gonna go church hunting probably during the June holidays or end-year. Hehe~ Really looking forward :D

My Hands

2010-03-25T21:33:00.003+08:00

I know I posted this song up before, but God, I'm seriously in love with this song. Not only cause it's FF:XIII North American theme but cause it's really.. ♥

It's awesome. 'Nuff said.

Emo :|

2010-03-25T19:39:00.002+08:00

I don't feel good. And no, I don't mean physically or in terms of sickness. I don't even feel like doing anything.

Oh, I do feel like rolling into a ball and sit at the corner of my room. But, everyone's home so my annoying family members would probably act concern and ask me what's wrong when all I really fucking need is time alone.

Screw it, I'm not even having family problems and yet I'm so pissed. I hate mood-swings and it isn't even the time of the month or, soon as a matter of fact.

No. I'm not pissed. Just a little disappointed. Gonna rest abit before doing Lit and Malay homework. Hopefully no insomnia tonight.

:/

:3

2010-03-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

Physics and Chem :D

These days, my time table is pretty structured. Go to school, come back, shower, sleep, homework. And computer inbetween of course. I need a life. :|

Oh and I have yet to recover and my antibiotics are about to finish...

Also, Mum bought me more pills. Vitamin C pills and multivitamin pills. I feel like a sick little lamb ):

Back to homework~

retarded -.-

2010-03-22T21:54:00.002+08:00

I'm so not in the mood to study or do homework. Sigh, let with only Lit and English though. Screw it. I went to the docs and told him I just have flu but upon returning home, I developed a headache and fever. -.- Retarded much.

Leona Lewis is awesome by the way (:

Pink Umbrella

2010-03-21T14:57:00.003+08:00

Cute cute cute cute cute?!?!?! :DDDDD

Soft pink heart-shaped umbrella! Adorable :D

I'm a little teapot (:

2010-03-21T01:19:00.004+08:00

Reminiscence and nostalgia (:

ADAM LAMBERT ♥

2010-03-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

SEXY SEXY SEXY SEXY SEXY SEXY!?!?!?!?!?! ;DDDDDDDDDD

I got this picture off someone's twitter cause the link was posted on Lambert's twitter. YES! I'M A STALKER! ♥♥

LOVE THE EYES! LIKE ZOMG! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

From his Japan trip~ God I love you Adam!

Best Cut Scene EVER

2010-03-20T01:27:00.005+08:00

Although it's in Japanese, this got to be the best fucking HD cutscene ever. With all the Eidolons transforming like transformers and Lightning being so damn hot! x) A must must must MUST watch and remember. In high definition of course :P

fail mug day

2010-03-18T23:01:00.003+08:00

I'm not a masochist but,
I love how it feels when everything hits you.
How the waves crashes onto the breakwater.
Savaging, trying to swallow you.
Yet, they recede reiterating their actions.

Or how the cool breeze reminds me of warmth.
The gentle light reflects off the full moon,
Portraying deformed figures
and reminding us how big the world is.

I miss taking night walks with my beloved iPod,
I miss it more if when I think about my aunt.
Hidden family secrets revealed,
Adding a little bit more drama into my life,
Not like my life is banal.

I have a mum who's alive despite everything,
I'm of a unique race,
I have an awesome bestfriend,
A bunch of amazing friends,
A lovely guy,
What more could I ask for?

Yet, I wish I could just sit and watch the sea,
Watch it til time freezes,
Watch it and pretend I'm not alone,
Watch it and thank God I'm alive.

There are many things we take for granted,
And, there are many more things we yearn for,
But what if,
In our previous life,
We yearned for where we are today.

I want my Mum to be able to walk again,
But, there's someone out there who wants their Mum back.
I should at least be genuinely glad she's alive,
Because if she wasn't,
I'll be praying and begging for her to come back.

Heh? Do I make sense? I think I do.

Anyways, now I wonder what dying would be like,
We're all gonna die one day,
but personally, for that last few seconds,
I'll rather be smiling than regretting.

Okay, that was deep -.- Was just thinking about somethings and I really do miss walking along the night beach alone. Maybe I'll do so tomorrow night. Sigh, today's mugging idea totally failed. I woke up in the morning ready to do POA only to retreat back into snuggling my blanket lol. And then I started talking to my Mum, Bro and Sis about our end year plan. Going back to Indonesia to redo our passports. Sigh, Jeff and I tried persuading her to let us home a week early but no~ She wants to go back to the village -.- Boosha!

I don't wanna go but she keeps insisting we visit our so-called relatives. Sigh, but she did say the guy who took care of her when she was little was sick so I guess she really wants to see him again. If he's gonna kick the bucket, I guess this is the least I could do for them. Oh, at least I'll be able to see the small lake thing I used to bathe in as a kid :P And my second cousins.

And catch roosters, pigs, cows... yeah, I wouldn't. Too gross :/ Oh! And I'll be able to bring home cocoa :D Provided my Dad lets me. Meh, that's practically what I'll be doing there.

I think however, I'm gonna bring make-up and look unfriendly so no one would approach me. I hate people speaking to me in Indonesian, except for Matthew, he's an exception.

Oh oh, and since I'll have nothing to do and probably limited internet excess (Wah! ): ) I shall go to spas and nail parlors etc etc cause it's cheeeeeap! :D Mum wants to stay at a hotel this time sooooo~ Hopefully they'll have good parlors (: If not then I guess I could go back to that big hotel instead. Cheap, long and good ;D

I'm looking forward to it (Well, partially) but I also don't wanna leave. Must make sure they don't book it during Grad-night or something or I'll totally freak ): Grad-night is a must go!

Neways, I needa do stuff... Goodnight (:

Navel piercing

2010-03-16T21:59:00.002+08:00

Today, I confirmed that Lightning has a navel piercing (:

This makes me wanna get it more but it's not like I'll be showing my belly button to anyone right? :/ Meh, I still want one. When I'm older.

Dead blog

2010-03-15T21:37:00.002+08:00

I havn't blogged for abit. Nothing much to talk about lol except I'm stuck at FF:XIII ): Stupid pope-looking guy who can summon/transform into a metal monster thing that casts strong magic and will doom me sometime.

Maybe I'll try killing that son of a bitch again soon. Yeah? Yeah. Goodnight.

stupid school

2010-03-11T16:34:00.003+08:00

Stupid school Gmail account thing. I don't even know where I'm suppose to go to try and sign in. I don't know my password either as well as I'm uncertain of my user name. I swear, why does the school even bother having edu-learn and email. No offence, but it's really stupid, retarded and futile. -.-

Fuck it.

2010-03-09T19:40:00.003+08:00

Can't play the PS3 now cause dad took away the controllers due to what happened yesterday. -.- I'm annoyed and if he tells me that we can only play during the weekends, I'll tell him what's bullshit. We'll just argue and fight more -.- I'm very very annoyed now.

I still very much hate you and how you're really just fucking turning me chaotic. This is the first time I've ever felt this way. Ever. So you know how much I compressed into myself? Years of your fucking nonsense. Yeah, I'm not always right but I'm not as bloody self-righteous as you. At least my favourite line isn't "It's not my fault okay?" God, since when have I ever hear you say it was. I can't remember any so that tells alot. -.-

Screw you. I knew this would happen. I knew that coming to TMS would drive me up the wall and yes, it did. I wish now you know, how much of my personal time you have invaded. I really went crazy because of you. Thank God I regained myself.

A big hug and thanks to Emily xoxo
If anything else happens, I'll tell you kays? (:

I hate you.

2010-03-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I fucking hate you. Ever since you entered the school, I have NEVER gotten a break from you. I DESPERATELY need to escape from home every once in a while BUT NOOO YOU JUST HAD TO PICK MY FUCKING SCHOOL! EVERYTIME I FUCKING SEE YOU, YOU'LL FUCKING APPROACH ME OR DO SOMETHING STUPID TO IRRITATE ME! CONGRATS CAUSE IT FUCKING WORKS AND I CAN'T FUCKING STAND THE SIGHT OF YOU. I WISH YOU'LL JUST LEAVE ME ALONE YOU BITCH! I HATE THE SIGHT AND THE THOUGHT OF YOU! YOU'RE NOTHING BUT A FUCKING NUISANCE! YOU'RE JUST SPOILT BY THAT WOMAN! EVERYTHING INVOLVES AROUND YOU! FUCK YOU! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE YOU! I CAN'T FUCKING STAND THE FEMALES IN MY FUCKING FAMILY! I know we change our destiny and fate and bla bla bla all that other shit but God is mean to put me in this Family. Or maybe it's not his fault, it's just everyone else is a fucking retard. I hate myself as well for not doing anything. For spoiling you as well. I should have smacked you more when I needed to but whatever, I can do so now. I don't care how much I hurt you because, bitch, you're doing the fucking same.

I'm losing my hair, or rather, I'll pulling them out. I can't stand this. I really really can't. I've been holding all these feelings, ignoring them but God! I've reached my absolute limit! When you said you wanted me to die, I really felt like jumping off. Maybe everything will end and you'll feel so much happier without having me around. You know, you will finally have your own identity at school. You can have your own room. You can have more money to spend. You can have the PS3 and all my items (No shit, I'm so not giving them to you, you useless ass) but nonetheless, you'll have Dad and Mum's undivided attention. OH WAIT, YOU FUCKING HAVE THAT ALREADY.

Really, I wanna kill myself. Fuck you for making my life miserable. I thank you alot.

Next year, I really need to move out.

Final Fantasy XIII

2010-03-06T22:43:00.001+08:00

Let the picture speak to you (:
Yes, I got my Final Fantasy XIII 4 days early :3

Happy Birthday Syafiq! :D

2010-03-05T21:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ! :DD

Hope you comb your hair more often! And use the special conditioner too :3

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Today, Amy came back for a visit. Also, my sister and I were talking about PSLs now and then. God, I miss Anand and Amy's batch. I remember our first PSL camp, it was honestly the best camp I've ever been for and so far, nothing has overtaken it in terms of fun, excitement and bonding. I swear, if I could go back in time to relive camp, I would. I bet no other camp or event can ever replace what I feel is so special from my first year in PSL. Like nothing.

The most vivid thing I remember would be the staying over. My first night walk was creepy yet pretty. I can't seem to describe it but reminiscing, it makes me smile. Also all the scary movies we used to watch, how cold the room felt, I can still feel it now. The dance room we slept in, everyone fighting for space to hang our wet towels and to sleep a comfortable sleep, I can play the image so well in my head.

Nostalgia. I really wanna go back.

However, I'm glad. I'm happy to know that this feeling would only come once because it makes it even more special and precious. Knowing the opportunity and family-feeling won't ever be the same, PSL just makes it into my lovely box of memories. And in an extraordinary corner by itself. We're growing up really quickly huh? (':

Happy Birthday Khairyll! :D

2010-03-04T20:24:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Khairyll! :DD

Sorry couldn't get you your present in time ):

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Tired once again. I don't really know what to blog about except, I'm hungry. No homework for tomorrow so I shall start doing 'stuff' soon ;D And also post up a picture (:

ADAM LAMBERT COMING TO SG BUT THE BLOODY CONCERT IS INVITE ONLY! D: FREAK!!! CANNOT GOOOOOOO~~~!!! DDDDDDD'x

Hm... who knew magnets could be entertaining. Even if it's for a little while :P

Happy Birthday Hannah! :D

2010-03-03T18:53:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Hannah! :DD

Hope you like the chocolate coated strawberry bouquet and card (:
Good luck for 'O' Levels and happy strawberry 17! :D

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Okay, I deleted all my messages before saving them in archive. God! All my messages from 1/2 16 December til today D: Soooo freaking wasted! Feeling pissed now urgh.

And my nose looks so pretty now because I have an annoying little pimple smack right at the center. Thank you oil! -.- I can't even squeeze it ): Sucks to be me.

My mum wants to go back to Indonesia at the end of the year. Grr.. Screw it, I wanna go there get my passport done and over with and fly back. I don't wanna stay there as the air pollution is awful. Besides, without parents at home, I can do stuff~

I wanna cut my fringe! Not the hair on my back cause I don't find it long enough but my fringe is too long, it's wavy x( I blame my specs for that as well. Oh and I wanna highlight my hair at the end of the year. What colour? Probably something bright yet not too flashy.

I'm tired once again but I need to study for Physics. Test tomorrow and I don't wanna fail. So... toodles~ :D

Check; tomorrow I have some workshop thing. Friday CCA. Saturday probably help PSLs out. Sunday Mass CIP(I'm at Tanah Merah balls -.-) Monday I can finally fucking relax. (hopefully!)

Random

2010-03-02T22:17:00.003+08:00

I'm tired.
I really wanna visit Florence, Venice, Milan, Rome and Vatican City.
As well as Paris, Dublin, Amsterdam, London(again), Vienna, Tokyo, Kyoto, Sapporo, Seoul, Bangkok, Holland, Copenhagen, Helsinki, Stockholm, Oslo and alot more countries/cities.
I should be studying physics now.
Busy tomorrow freak.
I can't wait for Friday night to come so I can bloody hell sleep in.
Screw everything fuck.
I hate chocolate stains on my fucking wall.
9th of March is a special day.
Cause Final Fantasy XIII comes out on the 9th.
Yay.
Argh. I think I'm PMS-ing.
Oh no, it's cause my bloody sister got chocolate stains on my wall.
Fuck you. Like seriously -.- bitch.
Hopefully I can leave this country soon to study.
How soon, God knows.
I pray it'll be next year -.- And in England

Video

2010-03-01T21:38:00.003+08:00

Tired... Lol. Stayed back in school for TGC stage rehearsal thing. Totally slacked again. And I wouldn't say the performances were so good, cause, some weren't :/ Oh well~ After that, went to the balcony area where Wan Qi was helping Christine, Syafiq and Sangee edit their video, omg so fucking hilarious! xD We definitely MUST MUST MUST play it tomorrow! Yolanda and I are guest starring as well so yeah, we're hawt models ;D (self-proclaimed)

I just hope the whole class finds it funny too xD After that, went out to eat at LJS with Yolanda, Christine, Soon Kiat and Wan Qi. Looked around a little after that :P Anyways, my brain is slowly dying so I'll stop blogging for now. A few more days til my awesome Final Fantasy XIII ♥♥♥♥
Apalulubaba!

Not enough sleep

2010-02-28T18:52:00.003+08:00

Urgh, cross crountry and then SLC. Lack of sleep so I slept from 10 ish to 1.30 plus. More than 15 hours of sleep and yet still not enough. God, needa finish homework and study for test after test. I can't wait for exams to be over and to turn 18, like seriously.

A few things I wanna do/get after turning 18.
-Start clubbing.
-Maybe, possibly, hopefully get a job.
-Navel piercing.
-Start working out. (10% chance -.-)
-Tattoo (Probably when I'm 20 +)
-Work hard to get into a Design University overseas (Aussie, NZ or England)
-Get a new laptop/desktop
-Dye my hair. I'll probably change after some time.
-Drink.
-Get laid :O kidding :P
-Oh and if 3 and 4 are fulfilled, maybe start wearing a bikini. Maybe.

Adulthood. For some reason, I can't wait yet, I don't wanna leave adolescence yet.

Pizza Hut

2010-02-26T16:33:00.003+08:00

Cross country today. Had to wake up at 0510 in the morning just to meet Marvin to go to the Esplanade lawn. Didn't run during cross-country and practically slacked throughout. Took alot of random photos using Sangeetha's phone so I can't upload them at the moment. :P Will post up some if I feel like it heh.

Anyways, after cross country, went to eat with Ledia, Cin Yi, Poh Geok, Christine, Yolanda, Syafiq and Marvin. Also went to look at little weird things at those little weird shops hoho~ Had lunch at pizza hut :D

Nothing much interesting happened. Now I'm at home, tired and sleepy. I think I'mma going to sleep soon... or stay awake and sleep early tonight. SLC tomorrow, God, kill me -.-

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Urgh. Feeling a little paranoid now. I'm currently suffering from PMS but I'm not angry, just a little upset and feeling empty in the stomach. Needs a little bit of reassuring but, I don't feel like talking to anyone. Fuck it. Hopefully it'll go after a few days, or not.

Sleeeeeeeeep -.-

2010-02-25T15:03:00.004+08:00

I'm at home right now and I forgot my mum got dental later on lol. So don't wanna go -.- Argh. Okay, I shall go update facebook, sleep and not wake up even if she screams at me. Oh and listen to music. After I wake up, I'mma play either Uncharted 2 or COD:MW provided my sister buys it today.

Hoolah! :D

Ranting

2010-02-24T20:40:00.003+08:00

I could rant even more if I had to. I'm pissed but I will try to calm down and not let it bother me. Or... maybe not.

God! Why is it that I'm the one to always be blamed. I really don't get you and right now, I don't wanna. It seems utterly pointless because it's not gonna change anything. I can't do anything to alter the way you think and I shall just do what I do best but please, don't influence the others cause you're not exactly in the right either. Every freaking time there's a problem and it takes observation to find out. Didn't I tell you to tell me if something really did happen? Now I feel backstabbed and -that- you're not putting effort into this friendship at all. -.-

As a true friend, would you really want this to continue dragging without saying a word about it to me and slowly hurting me as well as I'm hurting you? Or otherwise? Whatever, you pick.

Where is Emily when you really need her... Oh wait, in Cambodia D: Come back hunnnnnnnnnn!! I miss you! D:

Basilica San Marco

2010-02-23T22:06:00.003+08:00

See the resemblance? Yeah! The creators of Assassin's Creed II are just so freaking awesome! :DD They can make San Marco REALLY look like the real San Marco and the details are just wow! I SOOOO wanna go to Venice now! D: But I can't, yet. I still remember the promise I made with my sis that we'll visit Florence then Venice then Milan together. Heh, I might just go visit Rome alone instead :P

Must... visit... the... churches... urrrrgh....

400th post wheeee

2010-02-22T21:03:00.002+08:00

*clap clap clap* 400th post! :DDD

Yayyyyy~~!

Neways, today I went to nap with a slight headache hoping it'll be cured after I have woken up but sadly, the pain just grew. Right now I'm staring at my glaring computer screen and listening to music through my earpiece. The two things I shouldn't be doing cause I know it won't help decrease the pain. Whatever. Now the only thing I'm worried about is how to get back to sleep T.T God.

Oh! Also, today English was Morni-less! Yeah! Finally a break from naggy teachers :D But there's English tomorrow so... sucks to be us.

University

2010-02-21T00:39:00.002+08:00

2 nights ago, I was chatting with my mum's friends (they are 20plus ish) while eating apple strudel. We were talking about University and what I wanna do after secondary school. I already decided on taking up interior design which is obviously under art and also thought that maybe starting i.d. in Singapore might not be a really good idea. No offense but Singapore isn't too strong when it comes to art although it definitely is improving, nonetheless, I'm still think maybe going overseas would be better for me.

They say I should go straight to University and take up foundation year yet I feel like going to poly first. Maybe I am rushing but I really do wanna get my degree. I think I'll wait until I get my O level results before choosing poly or uni. Also, the cost is hurtful. I'll probably be able to rent an apartment or something in England and get a subsidy (that is if my dad decides I should swap my passport to a British one) which really wouldn't waste their money. Besides, I'll be going to Uni anyways right? Why waste money on poly? Sigh. I really dunno T.T and my exams are gonna come soon.

Also, leaving the country would mean leaving everyone else behind. Sure, I'll make friends there but I doubt I'll have any long-term friends cause I really do wanna come back. Although I love the weather there (yeah, if you haven't notice, I'm a cold loving person), I still don't wanna leave everything else behind. God, this is tough.

Well, Ledia said I should take my time deciding and I suppose I will. If I do well for my O's and can get into a straight Uni, I guess, why not. If I don't do too well then I'll be staying here.

Argh, I should be sleeping now. Nights.

Uncharted 2

2010-02-20T15:06:00.003+08:00

Addiction~~ :DD Uncharted 2 is awesome!

Neways, I shall finish this before getting my Final Fantasy XIII. And after that it'll probably be studying and studying and studying -.- urgh. Buuuut I'll be able to save money then and buy more nicer and awesomer games in the future. Yeah~

Anyone with PS3, add me :D VixenValkyrie. Toodles~

Wtf sasuke

2010-02-18T15:30:00.001+08:00

I have totally lost respect for Sasuke. I still have yet to shut the idea of Sasusaku but slowly.. it's fading -.- God, I want my old sasuke back! D:

God Bless Emily

2010-02-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

I don't really have anything to blog about but God bless Emily for she is leaving for Cambodia tomorrow morning. Take care sweetheart. Drink clean water and enjoy yourself there. Remember, a few days with *him* so make the best of it muahahahahaha >D

Hug hug kiss kiss and don't worry, I'll keep your ankle band safe and sound until you get back (:

Love you hunnn~

iWumbo

2010-02-16T23:51:00.005+08:00

"I wumbo, you wumbo, he, she, we wumbo. Wumbology, the study of wumbo? Come on, Spongebob, it's first grade!"

Patrick Starrrrrr~~~~ Cuteness and stupidity overload ♥♥♥♥ teeheeheee

Anyways, went out today to watch a movie with Wife, Brother and Daughter. Wanted to watch Percy Jackson but because the tickets were sold out, we watched Valentines Day instead. The movie was nice and everybody were linked with one another :D Romantic, tragic and interesting too!

But damn, the hot guy in the movie was gay -.- Why must all the hot looking boys in this world be gay and we're left with average or normal looking guys D: Heehee, kidding darlings. But seriously, alot of hot guys are gay -.- Argggh

2010-02-16T13:41:00.002+08:00

OMG! CLICK HERE HERE HERE HERE HERE!!!!

Thank you Emily for the link ;DDD

OMG! THEY ARE PUBLICISING TGC ON SGCAFE PROBABLY CAUSE OF THE COSPLAY FUN RAISING BOOTH!! AND AND AND IF YOU READ POST 3 IT SAYS THAT MOOGLE WILL BE THERE!

M-O-O-G-L-E!!!!

LIKE OMGONGMOGMOMGOMGOMGOPMFOMGOMGOMG!!

SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!! MUST MUST MUST MUST MUSSST TAKE A PICTURE WITH MOOGLE! SHALL BRING MY MINI MOOGLE AS WELL!!!!!1 OOOMGNPWDOSDCNOSFVBKSFVKL

*pant pant*

steamboat

2010-02-15T19:19:00.003+08:00

Slackingggggg~~~ lol. At Yolanda's house right now playing with her Vaio :D I so freaking love Windows 7! I wish I could get it right now along with a new Vaio L ): Dream on Michelle.

Anyways, some pictures we took using her webcam xDD

Lol. Will return to blogging when I get home I guess :PP Steamboat sooooooon~!!!!

Happy Valentines' Day

2010-02-14T22:09:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentines' Day Darlings! ♥♥

Morning was nice. It's been so long since we actually took an early morning walk/snack together. Even Dad was understanding lol. I love you Dear (:

Anyways, today I tried my fake eyelashes again and it took me only one try each eye to get it on. Omg, now I definitely understand why fake eyelashes exist. They simply make your eyes look so mush nicer. Wow. Also, I shaped my eyebrows. It turned really red until I kinda looked as if I was wearing pinkish eyeshadow lol.

Today was really just chocolate making. From 2 plus in the afternoon til 9 plus? Hehe. At the end, I counted like 134 chocolates total excluding chocolates we ate, gave away and fail chocolates. Which means we made approximately 150 chocolates. Feel really exhausted now.

Pictures~ :DD

The first few chocolates we made before wrapping them up in aluminium foil. The chocolates come in hearts, flowers and stars :D

The 134 chocolates together lol. I'm seriously sick of chocolates now. Oh and the wrapping kinda sucks. I'm sorry ):

The apron I used. It's yucky and chocolatie.

And the wrapped up chocolates I'll be bringing to wife's place tomorrow (:

So yeah, practically everything is handmade and this is the first time we're doing something like this. It's been a really fun experience :D

Oh and the fillings we added randomly were:
Blueberry chewy sweet thinggy
Chocolate syrup
Some weird honey mixed with milk
Almonds/Cashew nuts
Red chelory

Oh! And I forgot to add marshmallows! >.<

Pre-CNY

2010-02-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

Today went shopping for CNY clothing, heart shape molds, clear plastic wrap and ribbons. Went to bugis at first. I found the molds and they were the right size (: After that I bought 4 different type of plastic wraps and pink polka dotted ribbons oh oh and baby pink correction tape >D Then walked around to look for any nice dresses. Couldn't find any so I met up with Marvin at tamp to look somemore heh.

When I was at tamp, I went to buy new lipgloss and fake eyelashes. Also, 3 new pair of earrings. A simple heart shape pair for school, dangling red ones and ribbons. Hehe~ After that went walking around and around and around but God, nothing nice -.- Then we went to downtown and still nothing nice -.- Grrrrrrrr So pratically gave up. I guess I'll be wearing my new hoodie, either my denim or red/black checkered skirt with red tube. I'mma do my hair, put make-up on and probably the eyelashes. Argh! Been trying on the eyelashes and it's just so bloody difficult. D< I think I did something wrong. I lost too much tears, shall try it again tomorrow (:

OH! And Mum tried making the chocolate. Apparently we can so we'll be continuing tomorrow. :DD Wish me luck!

Leona Lewis

2010-02-13T19:16:00.004+08:00

Leona Lewis. Apparently I got an e-mail from Square Enix (newsletter lol) and Leona Lewis is being featured in FFXIII :D Yay! So I went to check out the song and her whole album, apparently I think I missed out on alot. Her songs are really awesome :D

My Hands - This is the one being featured (:

I Got You - Really like :D

Can't Breathe

I Will Be - not from this album but still nice :PP

I feel dry lol.

Happy Birthday Emily!

2010-02-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

I promised you this post and so, I shall give you this post. It's to my most lovable, awesome, adorable and tiny Girlfriend/Husband*! :DDDDD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!

I told you that there's alot of things to say so I shall say them all (okay, maybe most :P)

Firstly, We've been friends since kindergarten and until now we still are. We've never ever been to the same kindergarten, primary and secondary school. I even doubt we'll be in the same polytechnic but nonetheless, I believe we'll still be the closest of friends. We don't talk everyday and see each other sometimes only once in a month or more but that doesn't stop us from knowing we care and will be always willing to open up to each other when we have no one else to turn to. Thank you for your ever darling support and kindness. xx

Secondly, you're the only one who has seen every different side of me especially when growing up and that goes for me too. I've seen how you are angry, furious, ecstatic, retarded, disheartened and no matter which side I see, you'll always be my Emily. I thank that you trust me, to be able to open up to me. xxx

Thirdly, I also have to thank you for making our childhood a nostalgic one. Honestly, I do wanna go back to when we were younger and you were still living here with everybody else. It's sad we all had to split up but you were with me for 13 years and counting. We even fought over a boy -.- But it's okay, we make mistakes, we learn and we enjoy the rest of our lives :P xxxx

Forthly, I'm still not changing my plans on having you as my maid-of-honour whoever I get married to and I hope you're not changing yours >D kekeke xxxxx

Anyways, there's more I wanna type but I can't seem to think of everything and my back hurts D:

Goodnight babe (:

*If you're confuse, Emily is my Girlfriend and Husband. Yolanda is my Wife although she's a dad. Makes sense? No? Good. (:
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Lol. I was super moody coming back home today but now I feel so much better and happier after typing Emily's Birthday message. Anyways, I went to school, CCA, Parkway and I'm home. Super exhausted and my back really hurts so I think I'mma go to sleep really early tonight. Also, I'll need to go to Bugis tomorrow to get my transparent wrapping sheet, ribbons ♥ and CNY clothes >D I know I'm not Chinese but I'll be celebrating at Wife's place so I should get yeah?

Goodnight lovelies
hug hug kiss kiss

Ace died

2010-02-11T19:25:00.004+08:00

I cried over a manga. Again. )): Cause omg (spoiler) Ace died!! DDDDD': (spoiler)

And I'm happy because of Sasusaku. Again ((:

And I'm procrastinating malay homework. Again heh. I'm only left with half a page and then it's Chemistry and POA. The two subjects I can concentrate on >D

Oh, got back POA test today lol. I missed lesson and didn't even read up on the topic, nonetheless, I still did quite well ((: Woopla! I'mma post more pictures soon. Probably in the next few days. :D

Malay Essay

2010-02-09T22:14:00.002+08:00

I'm like doing my Malay essay now and have been at it since 8 plus? lol. I think I get really distracted easily and I can't seem to focus. Been like chatting and reading this blog. (GO READ! IT'S FUCKING FUNNY! xDDDDD) Now I'm blogging and listening to Adam Lambert~~~~~~

Oh and my hoodie came and apparently the size is Asian size "fit for Asian bodies" -.- Lol and I ordered S. Apparently it -looks- tight when i wear school uniform or school shirt (I can understand why heh) but it looks really nice and feels comfy when I'm just wearing tube and jeans hoho~ It's like perfect fit and hugs me ♥

Oh, do you know what you got into?
Can you handle what I’m ’bout to do?
‘Cause it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here for your entertainment

Adam Lambert is SEXAYE~!

*Check check love/friendship calender*
-Happy 10th month (: Love you
-3 days to girlfriend's happy 17 :D
-5 days to Valentines
-6 days to Chinese New Year with Clique :DD Steamboat at wife's place
-8 days till girlfriend's birthday dinner with yours truly
-24 days till Syafiq's birthday! :D
-32 days till TGC
-so many days till Wife's birthday

hohoho~

Study desk

2010-02-07T12:50:00.003+08:00

Finally I have a study desk in my room. Well, Dad didn't buy a new one so he gave me his current one just because he doesn't really use it. So now I have a place to put my computer and books ((: I even have speakers :D whee~~

Oh and the sliding thing where you put your keyboard, I'mma use it to keep my laptop when I'm not using it. So I have a bigger area to study. Also, I might bring in a coaster and the food mat incase I wanna eat in my room. Hur hur hur. I'm hungry.

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Also, today while I was cooking lunch, I started laughing to myself and I mean literally lol. Kept thinking about the stupid Bananas in Pyjamas joke with Syafiq xDD hurhurhur

Assassin's Creed II

2010-02-06T22:38:00.003+08:00

I've spent my 2 full days at home pointlessly playing Assassin's Creed II. I wasn't feeling well so I went to the docs and he gave me MC :D Too bad I missed POA urgh. Anyways, I seriously spent so much time on a game just searching for the codex pages (I found all yay! :D), glyphs (found all too! Yay! :DD) and feathers (40 more to go.) and now the music is stuck in my head. The annoying alarm clock-ish music which is supposedly played whenever I get too close to a glowing treasure chest.

Now my Ezio is going to leave for Vatican soon. Well, not until I found all the feathers and preped myself out. Infact, I'mma get more trophies before I leave to kill the "pope" (in-game duh) ((:

Audition boredom

2010-02-03T22:08:00.002+08:00

The result of utter boredom:

Me want a wrist tattoo now D: also to not fall sick cause I'm already feeling feverish and coughie. Grr.. Screw it.

Hoho, notice the skin difference :P I can't believe I'm so white -.-

pink remote control button

2010-02-02T18:45:00.001+08:00

I wonder if my remote control button can work the way I want it to work.

Truth be told; I miss you loads. ♥

2010-01-31T18:03:00.002+08:00

My new TV is awesome and HDMI :DD yay! Now to change the starhub thing HD as well. Oh oh and Final Fantasy is as amazing as me :D So you know how awesome that is kekekeke

Time to buy more blu-ray movies and PS3 games (: Pre-ordered Final Fantasy XIII already and I was number 309 to pre-order it at the shop. Yeah, seriously popular -.-

Need to self-discipline myself though. (: Sony is just awesome.

:000

2010-01-30T21:04:00.003+08:00

Yay!! Daddy just bought a new Sony Bravia TV :DD And it's coming tomorrow! Yoodla! :DDD It's only 40" though. Urgh.

Also, we discovered something new, apparently we can play music out of our TV through our PS3 and computer. Meaning: We store music into computer (say, itunes) -> then we turn on our Ps3 -> Then we use wireless or bluetooth to look for it and tada! We can play music from our TV :DD isn't it awesome. Kekeke. We have yet to discover what else we can do. Oh and daddy will be getting me a new computer table for my room. Hopefully I can use it to study as well (:

He's gonna order it tomorrow. Michelle is really happy :D

Plastic Surgery

2010-01-27T19:11:00.001+08:00

LOL!! Omg xDD Plastic surgery and inner beauty FTW! xD

Utopia

2010-01-26T19:35:00.003+08:00

I swear, this song is really beautiful.

The burning desire to live and roam free

It shines in the dark
And it grows within me

You’re holding my hand but you don't understand
So where I am going, you wont be in the end

I’m dreaming in colors
Of getting the chance
Dreaming of trying the perfect romance

The search of the door, to open your mind
In search of the cure of mankind
Help us, we're drowning
So closed up inside
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia?
Why does it have to kill the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia?
How will the lights die down, telling us who we are?

I'm searching for answers, not given for free
You're hurting inside, is there life within me?

You're holding my hand but you don't understand
So you're taking the road all alone in the end
I'm dreaming in colors, no boundaries are there

I'm dreaming the dream, and I'll sing to share
In search of the door, to open your mind
In search of the cure of mankind
Help us, we're drowning
So closed up inside
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia
Why does it have to kill the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain, down on utopia?
And when the lights die down, telling us who we are

Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia
Why does it have to kill the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia
And when the lights die down, telling us who we are
Why does it rain?

Symphonic metal

2010-01-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

Okay, I must thank Emily for introducing my first ever symphonic metal band so THANK YOU BABE! ;DD

I'mma go hunt for more of their songs now :3

-xoxo lovelies ;D

stupid crashing computer

2010-01-24T18:25:00.003+08:00

Argh. I can't believe I'm using Safari right now. -.- Ever since Dad install McAfee onto my comp, it's been crashing like it's nobody's business. Starting up and shutting down is so fucking slow and laggy as well as surfing the bloody internet. Now my Mozilla and internet explorer is screwed. Mozilla cause of the download thinggy and internet explorer cause of some rubbish mysterious error. -.- So pissing. I don't even wanna use Safari.

At this moment, my windows explorer is crashing, AGAIN. Mother fucking cunt. I don't the fuck know how to fix this or if I even can. Better still, I think I'll clear everything from my comp. Yeah, I think I'll do that.

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update:

I am proud to say I have an annoying little brat of a sister who bothers me whenever I do not want to be bothered and irritates me to the core. She disturbs me in school and shoves questions into my face. Lots and lots of questions I either do not know how to answer or am not bothered to. Nonetheless, she is still my sister and I have to live with her for the rest of my life. Even after we move out, she'll still be part of me and I'll still be part of her. And I remember the promise we made 1 or 2 years ago, that we'll visit Italy (Florence - Venice - Milan) for the first time together. Yeah, I still remember and I'm still keeping that promise.

Okay, the reason why I'm nice now is because you're nice enough to let me use your computer whenever mine gets fucked. Yay! (:

slackinggg

2010-01-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

A nice Saturaday like today, wasted. Been slacking and that's all. I'll probably study tomorrow. Probably.

Anyways, I finally found how to dry my hair without it getting all frizzy and dry and yucky. So my hair feels really smooth and nice today :D yay! I didn't even have to use the leave-in conditioner.

Argh. It's late, I should have taken a nice evening walk like I use to. Dammit, I miss my aunt.

Okay, I fucking love JoJo. I want her new albummmm ♥♥

Ah, I needa download Carrie Underwood's songs too. Mmmm

Tired

2010-01-22T20:18:00.002+08:00

I'm sleepy, I need new songs and I need to study. Argh, i'm tired and all I did was sit and doodle. CCA is heaven I swear. Neways, sleep and update more after I wake.

Uuuuuuwek!

Amy Winehouse

2010-01-21T20:02:00.003+08:00

Amy Winehouse xD

Isn't she gorgeous? Feel like smexing her up :PP

I got the picture from here so check it out if you wanna distress and laugh at fucked up celebrities. Yeah, the pic made my day (:

Break

2010-01-20T22:19:00.005+08:00

I'm taking a break from studying. I still suspect I might actually have A.D.D. cause I'm currently doing physics and malay. Sigh, I'm bored and sleepy and sluggish. Pfft.

I think I'll come back after I'm done with my mother tongue. There are some quotes I wanna put up (: And maybe reread my previous blog posts. Well, I'm feeling random today.

Oh and according to facebook, my lucky time tonight is 11pm. I wonder if it could be 11:34 or 11:56 or something instead of exactly 11.

Be right back ♥

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Nah. Changed my mind, too lazy to update :P

How can you measure the promise of love,
When it's weighing against a chance that comes once.
-Jojo; Doorway to my Dreams

Mmm..